ahaha I love OSU on the weekends. Last night I got wasted and had a really, really good time. Probably the best since I've been here. I hit on like..every hot guy in sight, laughed continuously for hours, danced my ass off, got invited to come back to bed with a boy (who was surprisingly sober yet very horny), and ate a cookie..or two. There is more substance behind these stories but maybe that will be for a later time. I have massive homework and plus I can't find my shoes. And also, my best friend is really the best.

Major commenters props: Laura, Nile, Dmitri, Alex

Got my freak on last night. Woot w00t. What dancing fools we were. I attract the weirdest guys haha. My butt is a little sore.

My best friend might be transferring to another school next term. This makes me really sad. I don't know what I'm going to do without her. :(

A photo gallery is coming soon! So be prepared.

Edit // I might like a new boy.

Here, I discovered that am either really happy or really sad. Lonely/jealous or loved/content. There is generally no middle ground. And the jealousy issue is a killer sometimes.

Plugs: Alex, RJA, Dmitri, Stephanie

My roommate used my speakers over the weekend while I was gone. They are switched in different places. You do NOT use my speakers without asking. The end.

I made a mistake on Friday that I think made him hate me (even more haha). I don't want to babble forever, so I will leave it at that. The fall out I predicted a few weeks ago has happened. We've basically stopped talking. It might be for the better because I think I liked the idea of him more than him. But fuck, I'm tired of being lonely.

Written at home while I was internet-less:

October 14, 2005 @ 7:14 PM

It's weird being home. Everything is so quiet. I haven't witnessed this much quiet in an extended period of time for weeks. I miss my dorm more now than I have missed home. Shouldn't it be the other way? It has also made me realize how disconnected I am with the world outside off OSU. I haven't read the paper in ages.

It's nice to stink up my own bathroom for once.

Plugs: Alex, RJA, Dmitri

Monster Cookies are divine. The ones they have here are so easily accessible and delicious. They are to blame when I get fat. It's not if, it's when. There are many bad temptations here. And bad music (my god people, get some taste!).

I do miss that comfort of deeply liking somebody. I've been trying to suppress any feelings that I have for him. Is that stupid? I still don't know what to do/think.

I have a longing urge to go shopping.

Plugs // RJA, Laura, Dmitri

Okay so I'm pretty much sad, depressed and confused right now. I feel a good cry coming on. I don't know how to handle all these emotions and thoughts.

More on this later, for I am hella tired and my bed is calling...

(cont. on Oct 7 @ 12:37 pm)

He came up and visited yesterday. It was going good until a certain point at conversation during diner. It made me realize how immature he is (despite his age) and what is motives are. I've done a lot of thinking and talking with people who I trust look up to. I can do better. I will always consider him a friend but I don't envision anything happening between us unless there is something much more deeper under his skin.

The Lovelies: RJA, Rain, Mez, Dmitri, Stephanie, Alex

College is fuunnn. Boys are fun. College boys are fun.