I'm on our other computer (our rouder went out so my laptop doesn't have the net) an holy shit, this layout looks SO UGLY on here. The green is like baby poop green. It will be changed when everything is fixed.

Today I decided that after I graduate from college, I will live in a somewhat large, bustling city. Then as I get settled down, I will live on a farm surrounded by nothing but vast beautiful land. With peach orchards. Crops of green bean. Lots of bright flowers. It is so peaceful in the country. I always feel a calmness wash over my body when I am standing underneath the swaying trees.

Al Sharpton's speech at the Democratic Nation Convention was amazing. Very moving. He is a passionate speaker that says what is on his mind. I admire that, and I admire him. John Edwards did a good job too. Kerry was mediocre. I'm not a big fan of his at any rate. But for the sake of our country (and others) I hope that Bush does not get re-elected. I would vote for Kerry if I was at voting age just so Bush could get the hell off our country's podium.

Mr. President, in all due respect, Mr. President, read my lips: Our vote is not for sale...

I'll be 17 in four days, the 27th (send some love ba-bee). It has crossed my mind once or twice that I am not mature enough to be 17. Or at least I don't feel like it. Maybe I don't have to be mature at that age. Although I feel pressured to be. Big decisions coming up in the future that will most likely affect the next four years of my life after I graduate this June. Too many things to decide and I'm not mentally prepared to deal with it. Maybe it is because I don't want to grow up yet. No, actually I do (I'm fighting with myself haha. How incredibly sad). But I don't want to have to go through the picking and the choosing, and most of all the responsibility.

Next blog might not be until the begining of August. The 'rents are going to Vegas while I'm staying at the Gma's crib. Why am I talking like this?!?!

I have Jimmy Fallon's "Idiot Boyfriend" stuck in my head. "Hey baby you like fine cooking? Cause you know what? I got a swanson's dinner in the freezer with your name on it." Cause I know what you want, and I know what you need....

Interesting complex:
Driving while shirtless. On hot days many (young) men seem to drive around shirtless, most with tan and toned bodies (yay). So I started to think, one day should I drive around shirtless exposing my breasts. True, I may get jailed for public exposure/indecency. But I am in the confides of my own car. So how does the law work then? AND if I drive around the certain part of my town were going shirtless for men and women is legal, then that is okay, right?

I can't wait for The Bourne Supremacy! The Bourne Identity was good so I'm hoping this one will meet expectations. Did you know it was based on a book? I bought it the other day.....so I can add to my list of books. I'm such a summer reading whore.

Thanks to everyone who commented last time--Stephanie, April, Hannah, Mez (Happy early Bday to you too! :D).

Fuck this, bitch. I'm back like a whack on crack who's talkin smack. My name is going to be lil' A from now on. Kinda like lil Romeo except not. But that is beside the point. This site finally feels rejuvenated (if there are any problems, let me know). So fresh and so clean.

John Mayer and Maroon 5 was amazing. One of the best concerts I've ever been to. Review and pictures up soon. Oh yeah, MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 12 DAYS.

Question of the day:
What would you do for a Klondike Bar?

HIATUS.
This site is a big piece of shit right now. I'm tired and unhappy with it. I've never put Unpredictable on a hiatus (suddenly I feel a sad, sinking feeling), but this one is much needed. Hopefully when it returns it will be back to where I want it to be--its wounds mended and its lackluster qualities gone. Unpredictable will be a new woman, so to speak.

There is always my livejournal if you dare miss me. Be back soon.

Ahh DO DA DO. DO DA DO. I just saw my best friend from Washginton that I haven't seen in TWO years!! *does the Ryan hand gesture that you don't know* Her and her boyfriend, Devon, came down because he's doing a visit at the Art Institue of Portland. They are supposed to be moving down sometime around November. That means we can see eachother a lot more often! YAY! We went to the "Monkey Restaurant", mini-golfing (yeah I lost), then the mall really quick and came back here for a while until they had to leave. Stephanie never changes, she'll always be "limited" hahaha. Her boyfriend is really sweet too. He reminds me of Peter...a lot. Imisshim.

I can't wait until she moves down. THEN WE CAN ACT RETARDED ALL THE TIME. YAAAAAY. I've really missed her. There is no one else like her that I can relate to in so many "special" ways rofl.

John Mayer in 3 days, bitch. I don't know what I'm gonna wear. Go nekked, maybe? Yes.

EDIT // Her visit made me realize I need to put more fun into my life and be more care free. I need to do what the Spice Girls tell me and "spice up my life."

Watch out everyone, I will be getting a killer body this summer....or so that's how the plan goes. Pilates video for my Birthday plus some exercise, and I plan to be a new woman. *sings off key opera* La la la laaaaa! Toned muscles here I come. Thank god I don't have to struggle with the battle of the bulge.

I've been reading a lot lately. I finished a 300-some page book in three days. Ok so I don't have much of a life. Shut up already! Reading is relaxing plus I've been wanting to read books that are not required for school. It's a good way to escape. I could've turned to drugs instead. HA. Reading, My anti-drug. Erh yeah. Someone shoot me.

Has anyone seen the commercial for those finger tip tooth brushing mitts? "Rip, slip, brush, ahhh." Not only is the commercial annoying, but it is the stupidest product ever! Whenever I hear the "Rip, slip, brush, ahhh," it reminds me of the proces of putting on a condom and the action thereafter (minus the brushing of course....unless you are into that kind of thing. hahaha.)

The swelling around my mosquito bite is almost the diameter of a baseball :(. My hand looks funny, kind of like I gained weight in that one region of my hand. The other bites haven't swelled to this extent, but I think this one did because right after it bite me, I stratched and squeezed it. WHY!?!? Don't ask. Just never do it yourself.

Lately I've felt that I'm trapt inside of a cage with this blog. I'm not freely expressing my thoughts nor am I being myself. It is like I'm trying to be something that I'm not in comdination with holding myself back. This is not good because that is one reason why I created this site/blog.

Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
And there are times
I lose my worried mind

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
And words will go
From poetry to prose

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

9 more days until John Mayer in Ridgefield!
26 more days until my Birthday!

I never knew choosing a photographer for senior pictures would be so difficult. There are many good places, but dayum, they rip you off!

Oh yay, my father is home and the yelling and complaining continues. Someone get me the fuck out of here. We're going in a raft trip this Saturday, now he is saying he can't go or some shit like that because of work. I am NEVER going to let work run my life, ever, let alone ruin my life. I've made so many vows what not to be like in the future, I can barely even think of the ones that are positive.


My dream car. *tear* Look how beautiful and red it is.

Another random thing: Almost one more month until my 17th Birthday (July 27). Woot woot!

I will puke if I see another "low carb" add. This craze has gone INSANE. Insane to the point where it is making others insane!! Plus, carbs are good for you. Carbs=brain food. THE STUPID PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT EATING CARBS ARE ROBBING THEIR BODIES OF ENERGY. Stupid fucks. And if you want to loose weight, exercise god damnit. It's better for you body.


The Japandal. An exotic hipster, you are. People
like you because you are soft-spoken,
brilliant, and like to go to the beach.
Seriously, you're the sandal of the hipster
world. Soak up the rays, and enjoy this while
it lasts. Sandals are seasonal, little guy, and
you've got three months to live. Four if we get
an Indian summer, but I doubt it. (And don't
start "West Coasting" me. Hipsters go
by New York time, whether they're from
Birmingham, Boston or Botswana. Why? I wrote
this quiz, losah...)

Which Puma shoe are YOU?
brought to you by Quizilla

haha Japandal aahahaha. For some reason that makes me giggle. I'm looking for some new blogs to visit--comment if you have any ideas.

Quick blog before I leave for my Grandma's...

The other night I realized that at night, people can probably see my changing. My blinds are closed upward to block more light, while in turn giving an easier view to the people driving by a nice look into my bed room. I've driven by my house at night and left the light in my room, and the top of of it is clearly visible. haha Free peep show. I wonder how many people have actually seen me? I should start charging...

Listening to The Srokes while browsing through the amusing Urban Dictionary, provides many countless minutes (not quite close to hours) of fun.

New layout! It's very simple--something I am feeling at the moment. School is finally out. Yay.

I got a bright pink bucket hat yesterday and I really don't know why. It is the only hat that has ever looked good on me plus it is so damn cute. Then I made a new necklace, it looks expensive but it was only $24. Umm let see. There is nothing much left to say. Oh yeah, I'm still really pissed off that Hanson is not coming to the West Coast, let alone not even considering it. I've decided that when my membership expires this month (or next, I can't remember), I am not renewing it. There is no point in spending $40 when their god damn website, the people who run and and are affiliated with it are RETADED. And don't even get me started on the street team. *grumbles* PSSHA.

Jordan: Aw thank you! I love your layout, btw.

Ryan: Oh Ryan, you have no idea. *chuckles* When my partner in crime, Stephanie (who I haven't seen in years) and I get together, you might as well say there is a new hole in the ozone.

Edit // 'Your Mind' and 'Ask Me' was updated. You people need to submit stuff more often. I've had 'Ask Me' forever and it used to be FILLED but I deleted all of them when I moved my site a few domains back and it is still very bare.

2 more days left of school...hell...yes.

Katie and I went outside to enjoy the LIMTED sun. *grumbles* Sometimes I hate Oregon. WHEN WILL IT EVER STOP RAINING, WHEN GOD, WHEN? Ok anyway, onto my original thought. So here's what went down:
Katie: *sits up from bench* My butt feels wet.
Me: *sits up* Holy crap, do does mine. HAHA You have water on your butt!
Katie: Ahahaha so do you!

I attempted to walk to the bathrom to see the extent of the "accident" but walking with a backpack covering your ass does not work well. After concurring that we both looked like we pissed our pants, we layed out in the sun to dry our butts--all while periodically checking to see if the water spots were reducing in size. Many minutes and one hella sun dried butt later, my pants were finally dry.

I just let out the longest SBD ever. *bows down*

I will be outraged if the bill for a woman's draft is passed. Feminists are pressing for the approval of the bill. I'm all for Feminism as long as it does not put other women in danger--and a draft will do exactly that. Women have a MUCH greater chance of getting captured, raped, tortured, and sexually mutilated, etc. There is already enough god damn men in this country who can "fight". Women don't need to be involved in war, unless they volunteer on their will. Our mind sets are completely different than men and we handle situations much differently.

I can see this random scene playing out in my head:
-Grandma: "Oh sorry little Billy, your mom and dad both got killed in the war and I'm on my death bad now. So guess what? You get to live in a foster home! If the bill wouldn't have been passed your mommy would still be alive today."

IF it is passed, I'm moving to Canada. But I heard a rumor that Canada would close their borders. So in that case, I'm getting knocked up.

The SAT is on Saturday at 8 AM....wish me luck, guys! Thanks to all my commenters too (and for the extra boost of confidence and warm fuzzies in my stomach). :)

Today went from bad to worse. We had an assembly at another school in town to honor the senior and juniors in our IB classes. I had to sit with some twit that I didn't know on the bus. Then the assembly was so FUCKED up that I can't even explain it. They awarded Krista for 'Excellence in Literature' when she doesn't even do shit. She is never in class, never does any of her own work (her mom and friends do it for it) AND she copies off everything I do. (I should've gotten that award for hell's sakes). The teachers are even stupid enough to believe her lame ass excusses. This world is SO fucked up--a school awards people who don't even deserve recogniton. What the HELL?

Then I continued sitting there thinking about my school work and why the hell I didn't get an award. I work my ass off (And that is more that I can say for Krista), submit quality work, do good on tests, complete my homework, etc and it is ALL good quality. I just don't understand. This might seem self centered but god damnit, it would be nice to get recignized for my hard work at least ONCE in a blue moon. I can't keep running on empty.

On the bus ride home I had to sit with the bastard who gave Krista that god damn award (my lit teacher). Ugh. I wanted to kill someone. Or at least severly hurt them so they would be a vegetable for the rest of their life.

After dinner I couldn't take it anymore. I cried....and cired. It came to me that I am just not good enough for anyone, not even myself.

Then my dad just keeps yelling at my mom, constantly...the abuse never ends. He is such a dick. GOD. I can't stand him. I can't fucking live this way.

Oh, I got a cell phone that is actally mine. You might've noticed there has been a new layout up for a couple of days. There will be a new one up soon because I don't like this one.

Good day today (that I so desperately needed). At lunch this "band" played in the locker bay haha...Oregon rain, ya gotta love it. They didn't have the vocals but instrumentally they were good, and so freaking hilarous. The lead singer was in an old school outfit with really short shorts. The next period, people kept coming into the library asking us if we could roll out tounge for a science survey. Then me and Katie got this idea just to stick out our tounges at be like "Am I rolling it?" with a really constipated look on our faces. The next guy who asked me, I stuck out my tounge and was like, "Iii canddd't!" Gahaha. We could stop laughing at the guy gave me an evil look buwhahaha.

Then around 5 Katie came to pick me up and we went off to Borders to read magazines then put them back on the shelf lol. We are so cheap. So we ate at this resturant (bacon cheese burger, yuuum) and we barely had enough for a tip....$2 in quarters, nickles, and dimes baby! Went off to the movie theatre--bought tickets for "The Day After Tomorrow"--went to Target to kill some time--sat in the lawn chair that were displayed in the aisle and talked--made retarded faces at the hidden video camera on ceiling--laughed too much--then I farted once in the make up aisle.

When we walked back into the theatre, it was so packed b/c the show was sold out. We just happened to stop right beside a group of 3 guys in a 4 seat row to search for seats:
Mofos: Dude, that girl is hot. Yeah!
Me: There are no seats!
Mofo #1: Hey, there is an extra seat right here *all mofos look in my direction and mofo #3 motions to the seat*
Me: Hahaha ummm I don't think so.
Mofos: Awww, haha, alright.

They were cute but too preppy. Or else MAYBE, just MAYBE I would've thought about it. They were all looking at me and I was just like "Uuuh, right." Granted I was wearing a tight shirt and pants. Oops *innocently covers mouth*. The preview for "White Chicks" was showed and AHAHAHA, that looks effing hilarous. "The Day After Tomorrow" was shuch a good movie. There was no real plot but it was so thought-proking and just plain freaky. To think a catastrophe could actually happen and change the way we live is really haunting. Katie and I were so scared we were going to die after it hahaha. We're like "nooo, we are polluting! aaah" Somehow we got into the converstation that the West Coast is due for a major earthquake in the near future. And that is when we were like "Gaaah! It could happen right now....when we are going over this bridge!" Then into random people shooting us while driving down the almost deserted road to my house. Meeps. It made me realize how fragile life is and that sometimes the little thing just aren't important. The symbolism in this movie was great. Plus Jake Gyllenhaal is a BABE.

edit // 5.30.04 @ 10:24 am // New Layout!

Dale came to visit our school today, wtf? He goes to a different school...and should stay there. He just had to stare/talk to/touch me. Eww *shudders*. See last year, when he went here he would always touch me (not sexually haha) constantly talk to me, do/suggest weird things. Ugh. I can't explain it other than NASTINESS and creepyness.
Anthony: You have no butt.
Dale: Yeah, but she has hips! *in really excited tone*
(That is just one 'normal' example)

So anyway. Katie could hardly control her laughter when he came up to me today, then he just blabbed on and when he was suggested that he should leave me to do my French I aburptly said, "Ok bye" haha. I always brush him off, signaling to stay away from me but he can't get it though his little head. Actually his head is quite large compared to the rest of his body. Then I saw the other freak who would always talk to me in the library and what not and lean over and smell my hair earlier this year *cries*, working at McDonald's gahaha. The weird guys (in a bad way weird) always like me.

THEN I saw Peter. Yaaay. Heisthecutestthingever. I love the way he dresses and his goofy personality. How come I always like things that I can't get?

I'm the biggest procrastinator in the world...I haven't even checked my email ::hears incredibly loud and obnoxious gasps from audience:: To avoid doing all of the important things I've downloaded numerous new fonts and have successfully achieved having exactly 420 of them.

I can't believe only 12 some odd days life in my Junior year. It cannot be possible. Next year I'm actually going to have to THINK and make life altering decisions *goan*. Didn't I write about this in a previous entry? Ha.

There is this bookmark that says "dreams" stuck on my cork board message center right above my laptop. I can't stop looking at it.

The guestbook is quite lonely. Poor thing....how can it survive without any love?

Becca: Have fun your last few days! You deserve it *hug* I'm planning on making you a cool little graphic (well there goes the surprise haha).

I just realized how much this layout makes me want to puke. It's too blah. Expect a new one soon, maybe during the next couple of weeks when I will be procrastinating under all the pressure of my projects and finals.

I saw David today (my very own Ethan Embry look-alike) that I was obsessed about a couple months back. He's always had a little meat on the bones, but it has been toned and sexy. And now.....it is just not good. He has mini man boobs and the works :( How can all of that happen in just a few months? Plus his sideburns are cut all weird and *sigh* He's just not the same David anymore. The reason why I'm only focusing on his looks is because I've only talked to him a few times and have never known him personally, so therefore I can only comment about his appearance. Shallow, I know.

But it's okay, because now I have Petie...yay! He's so cute, tall and goofy/dorky, awe I luff it. His real name is Peter but Petie just makes me giggle. He was sitting weird this afternoon and his shorts were hiking up on his leg, revealing the not-so-tanned and REALLY white upper leg hehehe...just like mine (except my whole body is really white lmfao). A match made in heaven! We always look at eachother but I never say anything. I need to stop being so shy.

Oh yeah, I just checked out 15+ books at the library on the Oregon Trail. I feel like such a nerd haha.

New layout! The other one was getting boring. Although, I might change this one very soon because the only thing good about it is Tyler Hilton. *licks* His voice is different but his music is pretty general (Jason Mraz type of thing).

I want to see Troy. Correction, I need to see Troy. Orlando Bloom...Brad Pitt....gah! The only thing missing is Heath Ledger and a really random sexy guy haha. Shrek 2....that is also a must see. I FOUND THE SEXY GUY.

The NHS induction was last night. I like my outfit. It seemed like I was joining a cult though. They made us light these candles and say some sort of "excellent student pledge". Excellent student my ass. If I don't get my grades up I'll be kicked out of NHS. Ha, on second thought that doesn't sound too bad. I didn't even want to join it in the first place but it looks good on college apps., and I thought it might get me a little extra scholarship money.

Ok, I'm off! *wables away on cane*