It's sunny again! I love the warm weather, it seems to warm my soul (or something strange like that). I can't wait for summer vacation. I'm hoping this one will be different. I want to get out and do more. Have fun, I guess! I'm taking driver's ed too, that should be a blast. *groan* I've also given up hope for a job this summer. No one is hiring, and it's just not worth my time even if they were hiring because I have no experience. I'll wait until later next school year when I've done some community service so I have a couple refrences, experience, etc.

I fixed the text so it doesn't go sprawling to the other side of the page like it did for some people. So hopefully it works for you Mez! *crosses fingers* I don't think as many people visit here as they used to like way back in the day. I probably scared them all off. *throws head back and laughs evily* Buwhahaha! hehe I'm weird. Thanks Amiee, Mez and Wingyee for commenting.

I don't think my life can become any more stupid. Tiff, Anthony and I went to see Bruce Almighty last night (which by the way was hilarious--I suggest you go see it). Since I usually don't hang out with guys after school, my parents flipped. After I got home they lectured me like it was some huge, mega-disasterous deal. It is just a freaking guy! They went on about how, "We don't even know him. If you are going places with him than we need to sit down and have a little chit-chat with him and really get to know him. We need to know any guy before you hang around them. We condsider what you just went on a date and we think you are too young for that." Wtf? I am almost 16 and I'd understand where you are coming from if I was actually this guy's GIRLFRIEND not FRIEND. Then they started getting into how I am going to take a self-defense class this summer if I am going to be "dating" because it will "serve me for the rest of my life". I swear my mom was going to shit her pants because she was so frustrated and angry. I hate how my parents treat me like I'm their little girl who is 2 years old, not independent, helpless, ingnorant and like I don't know how to handle myself. My parents have always been way over protective and act like everything is a big deal. I want my parents to be NORMAL. Nobody's parents in the right mind would want to sit down and talk to their daughter's guy FRIENDS. Normal parents just meet them and say Hi and that's really it. None of my friend's parents act like guy friends are a big deal and don't care if they meet them. And definitely none of my friend's parents are making me take a fucking self-defense class. Why can't my parents be normal and not crazy-minded insane prision guards? I'm never going to be over protective of my kids...protective but not over the top. I can't wait to get out of this house. I'll be free from the gates of my parents and their STUPID rules.

The comments are being uncooperative and won't let me view them, so thanks to everyone who has commented over the past few days.

Today went from bad to worse. Although lunch wasn't too bad, the rest of my day was a rotten egg. It actually started last night when I started to get really pissed off from what happened earlier that day. Anthony and Dale couldn't stop making fun of how white I am. I know they were joking but it started to piss me off...like I don't know I'm white already! Then Anthony was like, "I love you!" Ha yeah, that didn't work. My dad even commented on how white I am. And I was thinking, "Thanks, like I haven't heard that 50 billion times already." So back to today. I woke up and my leg hurt; then I had a blister from the flip flops I wore the day before; I couldn't get the juice bottle open, so I went to reach for the milk but it wasn't there (it turned out my mom left it in the car like I suspected); I go to school only to see thee bug the crap put of me; I am in a bad mood the whole day and no one notices except one person who end up laughs at my minor problems; then 4th I couldn't take Katie's snootyness anymore. She was getting so mad at the fact that other people on her cheer team only care about theirselves and I'm like "Helloooo! You're one of them!" She just follows the crowd like a lost child. The anger kept building up inside of me and I ignored everyone and no one seemed to notice. Not even and "Are you OK?" Nothing. Boy I have real quality friends that like to reach a hand out to others that are really hurting. I know this doesn't seem like a lot but the way my mind is wired, it is. All this "drama" and the thoughts that race through my head clutter my mind like an over-flowing trash can, and doesn't make for a very emotionaly balanced Ashley. I'm going to be glad when school's out.

Oh no, the curse of Dale has fallen upon me again. Now that he has broken up with his freshman girlfriend he is all over me. Today he was like, "I should give you a back massage sometime. I'm so good at them people have even paid me before!" Then he started to rub my back and said, "That one was on the house." And as I was leaving the classroom he was blocking my way out with his open arms for a hug, so I had no choice, I had to give him a hug. Now if he didn't creep me out then I wouldn't mind this and I'd definitely take advantage of the situation. But this isn't so, he simply creeps me! lol

I haven't heard from one of my best friends (who lives in a different state) in over 4 months. None of her emails are working either. And I think she would have told me if she changed it. I wonder what's wrong? I'll call her this weekend. Hopefully she is not mad at me or something bad happened to her. At this point it doesn't look like she's coming down since we lost contact. Hmm..like I said. I'll call her. Awesome commenters: Sarah, Amiee, Sez

I'm very ashamed of myself--I listened to the Spice Girls for the first time in over 5 years today, and the worst part is....I actually ejoyed. "Why?" you must be asking. I asked myself the same question and I came to the conculsion that it brought back so many childhood memories and good times. I listened to it because I needed something upbeat and fun to work out to. I had a blast dancing to it on the treadmill, "Stop right now thank you very much I need somebody with a human touch Hey you always on the run gotta slow it down baby gotta have some fun". Oooh and then I washed my face with REAL face wash since two years ago. I used Tazorac cream for my pimples all that time and I couldn't stand the side effects any longer; the occasional redness, dryness and sesitivity to sun. I'm going to see what happens and if it seems like I need to go back on the ance cream then I will (unfortunately).

Thank you everyone for commenting :D. I also added Wingyee to my almost dailies list. I forgot to add her the last time I updated it. And speaking of updating, I need to update some of the contents. But that is all in store for next time (be excited)! I burned the Moulin Rouge soundtrack from Mary. It is so good. I love that movie too...such a good love story. "All you need is love. All you need is love. All you need loooove. I was made for loving you baby and you were made for lovin me." *sigh* I'm such a hopeless romantic.

This week has been awesome so far. It's good because I really needed it. Anthony is a lot of fun to hang out with. And he is one of the main reasons why these past couple of days have been so great (aww). I always find myself laughing and smiling when I'm with him. He just has that charm I guess lol.

I was out in the sun too long yeesterday and got burnt. And it just had to be that I was wearing a teeshirt so now I have this awesome farmers burn (no, not a tan) haha. I got a little sun on my face too, and there is a very abrupt line between the red and the white on the bridge of my nose were my sunglasses sat. Good one Ash! *pats self on back* The lesson of this story is to wear sunscreen at all times while out in the sun. Thanks Sez and Amiee for commenting. :) Well I am off to fix the ever-retarded blogger so it will show more than one entry, and to visit everyone's sites.

A good cry helps just about anything. All the crap that has been piling up, emotionally, phyically, mentally, etc., finally over flowed and I couldn't take it anymore. I broke down in tears and let it all out. I was (and still am) so fucking tired of everything, the people around me and the shit they carry around. I couldn't stand my dad's self-centeredness anymore, the fact that he thinks he is never wrong, and that the world and every other single freaking thing should be about him. I hate the way he is such a hypocrite and how he never views the other side of the arguement, which is totally valid. Agh! I just don't like how he thinks everything has to revolve around him and that if something in his work goes wrong is was "definitely not his fault and the other people were out to screw him." Then he complains about how late he has to work. The problem would be solved if he wouldn't spend the whole freaking day looking up internet porn!

And Friday next my mom was being so unreasonable. Sara and I wanted to go to this dance club since it was High School night and so many people were going. But she said I couldn't go because "she didn't know anything about this place and wants me to take some sort of self-defense if I went there." I was like screw that! That is the lamest excuse I've ever heard. Can't she just treat me my own age and not like some stupid and helpless 2 year old? I know how to carry my own weight and it is just a retarded dance club for God's sakes! She is way too over protective. I don't want to be chained to a fucking wall anymore. I need to get out of this place...I need freedom!

Sara and I ended up going to a movie Friday night and we had SO much fun. We were going to see the Xman movie but it was sold out so we saw Bullerproof Munk instead. It actually turned out to be a really good movie and Sean William Scott is very, very hot. :) Since we had a litle extra time before the movie we walked around the mall and found this huge window looking out into a busy parking lot. We started to model and show off our sexay little bods. It was so hilarous and we had such a blast. All these people were looking at us from outside too. We are so weird when we get together. That is why I like hanging out with Sara, she doesn't care what people think of her and we always end up having so much fun.

I screwed up blogger and it's only showing one entry (for me at least) and everything below it doesn't show up. I'll try to fix that one way or another.

I've been trying to find time to get on the computer long enough to write an entry but my dad has constantly been on it. We need two computers! Maybe instead of saving up for a car when I get a job I should save up for a computer lol. I'm eating tortilla chips...mmm yum. And I just got crums all over the place. Before I forget--commenters: Xinhui, Lillian, Mez and Sez. I also added Amiee and Xinhui to my dailies. :)

Anthony has been so cute lately. I don't want to like him but it's so hard not to. He is just so adorable and flirty sometimes that I can't help not to like him. And Tiffany totally loves him. She's really clingy with him. And not to mention that she is all over him, she thinks she is all that, now since she has been hanging out with different people. Katie is fake and now Tiffany. What is this world coming to? If I ever get like they do I hope somebody slaps me.

I'd love to get out of this place. Just leave everyone all of this crap behind. Start a new life and a new identity. I can't wait to leave...be free and love! haha But then I think that it wouldn't be any better, "...my friends are just like the "friends" I had in school - they're no better, no more mature or understanding or friendly. It's all the same shit, just new faces and names," it would be exactly like Tara explained. All I know is that I want a change. Please, someone move my cheese!

I got John Mayer tickets! On the floor, center section, isle P (which is a little beyond the half way mark in the section). YAY! They sound like they are some pretty good seats and it will be really nice since it's an outdoor venue. Well it should be for almost $50 a ticket. But it will be worth it, so no complaints. :) When I got there around 9am there were only a couple people there and the rest were for wrestling tickets haha. I was the 4th person in line out of 7 (if you count the people who were together). If anyone's interested in going, it's July 10th at the Clark County Amphitheater in Ridgefield, Washington (get tickets). I still have to find someone to drag along with me but that shouldn't be too hard.

Hmm..I don't have much else to say. I haven't really done a lot this weekend except pick up a million jop applications and buy the tickets. Thanks to Xinhui, Aimee and Mez for commenting. I have an old rock song stuck in my head, "So here I go again on my own. I'm going down the only road I've ever known..."

This year has gone by extremely fast....only a month and two weeks left of school. Woot! This week has been so good. I've felt so relaxed and comfortable around everyone. I can act like myself and not feel constricted. It's such a great feeling. I'm actually enjoying school a little bit more. And the weather is getting really nice. Ahhh...summer. I tried to get a tan the other day. Errh, that didn't quite work. I think I'm permately white. But there's nothing wrong with a great layer of white skin lol. :) John Mayer tickets go on sale Saturday at 10 AM. I hope I'm the first person there and get good seats. Oh second thought, it might be general admission haha. Either way I'm gonna get good seats, damn right. I have to find somebody to come with me too. Speaking of John Mayer, there is this guy at my school who looks like him only hotter. I see him around all the time. I really should start talking to this guy, I'd be for my own good lol. Thanks to all the awesome people who signed the guestbook and commented. :)