*dances*
Should I stay or should I go now?
Should I stay or should I go now?
If I go there will be trouble
An' if I stay it will be double
So come on and let me know
*end dance sequence*

Had to get that dancing out of the way....while sitting in my chair. How does she do it, you ask? Just HOW does she do it?
INTERPERATIVE DANCE=FUN.

Oh boy, here goes my dad complaining once again. Just over a year and I'll be OUTTA here. I really don't know why I'm blogging right now. I have nothing interesting to say. But wait, do I ever? No. Maybe only once in a blue moon. Spring Break next week...sleeeeeeep. I have a full list of things to accomplish: Get the new layout up and update some contents; exercise for at least 15 minutes every night; scan some of my artwork to make a portfolio; paint; and that is all I can think of. But you know I am going going to get 1/2 of 1 thing done.

A guy trying to act retarded came to our door wanting to sell something tonight haha. It was so random.

Alex left this comment: You should update more... your life is fun to read about. :c) *giggle* I think I'm speechless (partly because I find a lot of my life a complete bore, so it is cool to know that at someone thinks it's fun). And just because you have made me extrememly happy, I will update more often for you! <33 I've been meaning to but school work has been a beotch.

The drying went off 20 minutes ago. Oops.

The past few days have been gorgeous--sunny, not a cloud in the sky, warm, but not too hot. On Wednesday Katie and I went to the park and swung. It brought back many old memories from my passion of swinging when I was younger. haha I felt like I was flyyyyyying!

Then today we went down town and while we were waiting in the steps, a 5 year old boy and his mom walked past and the little boy said, "Hiiii! You girls are so beautiful! Where do you live? What are your names?" He had on these huge sunglasses and was carrying a massive lolly pop. He was sooo adorable and his compliment made my day hehe :)

I added two new dailies!! A and S, woot! There was something else I was gonna say, but I forgot. Dur. Updates soon....maybe next blog.

Last night I cried myself to sleep. Every discontent and I have in my life poked it's head out of it's ulgy little shell and surfaced in my mind--from school, friends, home/parents, to my inner thoughts. I can't even express how I felt. I wanted scream and break like...a tv or something hah. I needed someone to hold me and tell me everything is going to be all right. It hit me that the only good things I have in my life that I love are Hanson (and all good things surrounding that) and my dog, and he's not even here anymore. He was my ultimate comfort and best friend. I will never get over his death :( Fuck. Now I'm crying.

Since I spent all night crying and didn't get to bed until 2, my eyes were so puffy this morning that it looked like I had spent the night on a bed of pollen. Everyone was like, "Woooah, you looked tired," haha it just made me laugh.

We wrote a paper in English for French class about France banning religious symbols in public schools, and my stupid ass teacher thought I plagarized it. "But it was so beautifully written, I just didn't know." I don't know whether to take that as a compliment or as an insult of her doubting my intelligence.

Today was nice and sunny, I liked it.

I've been so lazy lately. I need to get my ass up off the ground and work out so I don't feel like such a jiggly piece of jello. I know I'm not fat...I just feel so lazy and useless, like I am letting my body go. I'm not treating myself right. And the funny this is when I wanted a gym membership last summer, my parents wouldn't let me get one. Wtf? I don't understand their logic.


I had this purple eyeshadow with tiny silver sparkles fermenting away in my makeup bag (similar to the one at the let), so I decided to takae an angled brush and use it as an eyeliner. And I must say it looked fucking awesome. I am wearing my makeup like that to school more often. Basicially everyone at my school wears black eyeliner, the norm. Yesterday I wore this electric blue liner haha. I rock. Then my favorite is this dusty rose/light wine liner with shimmer. *nods* Why I am talking about this, I have no idea.

My lit teacher read my essay the other day during class. I wasn't paying attention so all I heard it "blah blah blah, I'm going to read some really exceptional essays, blah blah blah, this one is Ashley's, blah blah." I was thinking 'Wait, what? No, it's not mine!' But when he read the title I was like "*gasp* It is mine! Gaah!" Meeps it was so embarrassing because everyone was staring at me and I was laughing/covering my face and the girl next to me was like "Your as red as a tomato!" Which of course made me blush even more lol. But I thought it was cool that my essay was good enough to be read out loud. I was secretly dancing around inside my brain hehe.

Ooh and voting has started at the Fame Awards, so go vote for me!

Never-Forget.org is back! And while it was down Unpredictable celebrated it's 3rd Birthday *throws confetti*

I'm so glad you guys like my new car :) And rofl, I love what Cheryl wrote, "There for your convenience, why not multi-task, you can do a range of things at once. Buy the brand new, top of its range dungy buggy, you won't regret it. Only $999. Bargain, don't miss out!"

I got this retarded haircut the other day. I have choppy long bangs in front that frame my face...the idea was cool but it was not cut right so it looks horrible lol. I'm going back to get it fixed into a nice, soft feather.

I have a huge paper to write and I don't want to do it! *cries* Why do I procrastinate so much? Thank you all you wonderful commenters: Becca, Cheryl, Stephanie, Brittney & Aaron

DUUUDE. I got A FREAKIN CAR. Eeee Ohmigosh, it is such a dream come true! Looook:



Me: omg i'm so excited
Stepho: DUDE! WHEN I GO TO THE COUVE NEXT WEEKEND YOU CAN VISIT ME! PIMPED OUT PLAYAAAA. I BET IT HAS A BANGIN STEREO SYSTEM!
Me: the stero system is BEYOND pimp. the toilet seat even rattles and the water splashes around when i blast it. it EFFING rocks.
Stepho: HAHAH OMGOMGOMGOMG ASHO YOU JUST KILLED ME ROFL THAT WAS THE BEST

New content coming, lots of updates to existing contents and a new layout is all coming in the next couple of weeks. And thank you to all the people who commented :)

BYE. I'M OFF TO RIDE IN MY NEW CAR! (Btw, you HAVE to see the keyless entry system)

Home alone with nothing to do *sigh*. That reminds me of a song, "Sittin all alone in this place, even though we're here face to face. There is something gone but there's nothing missing..." Except that I'm not face to face with anyone...just me, myself and I...erh yeah. Fun times. PAAARTY.

We are geting lockers are school, woot. No more back breaking backpack!! YES. I was telling my mom they took them out before because of kids storing drugs in there and she goes, "They wouldn't do that now though, would they?" and I laughed and told her they would. Then we got to talking about people doing drugs at my school and aaahaha what she said next cracked me up, "Do they go out back....and..smoke grass?!?" Lmfao. Just the tone she used was hilarous.

When I type the lamp on my desk jiggles and makes an annoying sound.

This girl is SO effing cool. Look at what she said about me in her blog: "I long for my web site to be like THIS." OOooh yeah *dances* You have no idea how much a compliment can brighten my day. And speaking of this site, it is going to be 3 years old on the 25th! *throws confetti*

Oh gracious commenters: Lillian, Laura, Ebony, Brittani

Aww this poor, poor little blog has gotten some neglect *strokes it*. BUT HAVE NO FEAR, I am here to blog and show my...gear? Erh yeah. Rhymin ain't my thang. I had so much friggin homework this weekend it feels like I haven't evevn HAD a weekend. Grr. I want my weekend back :(

Katie and I went shopping on Friday and I got this halter in red. It's so soft, you must FEEL IT. Then I also got a sweater for $10...ok I lied, $9.99. I also tried on some prom dresses (I don't even know if I'm going but trying on big, fluffy gowns is fun) and I found this silky purple one that made me feel like a beautiful woman from the 30's. It was so luxurious haha. Anyway...more of my shopping adventures...I got the COOLEST shirt the yesterday. It was only $10, originally $29 and it fits like a glove. DAMN RIGHT BITCH, I AM THE QUEEN OF DISCOUNTS.

I also think I'm getting sick. Blech.

Ebony rooocks.

Yesterday my name was announced over the intercome morning annoucements for winning Honorable Mention in the Valentine's Day Card Conteset for Art Club. Haha...I was like "Yay?" and everyone in my class started talking to me about it lol. It was slightly embarrassing but I've always secretly wanted my name to be on the annoucements hehe. There were only three winners, including myself out of 15 some entries. I get some gift certificate to an art store. Whoop whoop. Who's house? My house!

Umm let see. Dentist tomorrow...for cavity filling....help! I hate novacane and drills.

The movie Crazy/Beautiful was on last night. I forgot how delicious Jay Hernandez is haha. Click once, click again, and click ONE MORE TIME.

So here I am wasting words on another pointless blog.

I saw Luke Jackson walking around the other day. Haha That dude is such a ninnie. I suggested we mob him and break his leg but no one was in my favor. Damn party poopers! *shakes fist*

I got Incubus' new CD, A Crow Left of the Murder. It is amazing. And the lyrics...just dayyum. It totally reflects what is going on in the world today. Incubus has succeed yet again in producing another incredible album.

It's interesting how people find my site through search engines:
-"boob editing photoshop tutorials"
-"nick lachey+earings"
-"what does a cow sound like if it has mad cow diease"
-"ooolala boobs"
-"Spongebob layout"
-"Demented hills"
-"didn't wear my retainer"

Amusing and freakishly cool lyric of the moment: "Darling Nikkie" by the Foo Fighters ..And I could not resist when I saw little Nikki grind..

Yesterday sucked. My period leaked all over my jeans before I could do anything about it. Luckily I was wearing dark jeans and you couldn't really see the stain unless you cocked your head at a certain angle 5 inches away from my ass. But ;lakje9ehfalkjh. It was just retarded.

I finally redeemed my iTunes gift certificate from Christmas. I got a little Coldplay, Audioslave, Matchbox Twenty and *cough* one Georgle Michael song heh. My list is still very long but I can't spend any money right now.

Saw David again today. That boy is damn cute. It's his loss having a girlfriend that's not me. Damn straight.

Here's my plug for today!

Ah...fresh, new classes. I don't think Math will be too hard but French on the other hand...I've forgotten basically everything we learned last year. The teacher is exactly the same--she spent 40 minutes plus on the course outline, gave the same first day lectures, rabmbled about nothing, and called us "people" more times than I could count. That class/she is an absolute joke.

I love how my dad complains about having so much work and never as time to do anything. If he wouldn't download internet porn all day then he might have some free time. It is fucking disgusting. It has been going on for a long, long time. When I was on our family computer, the one he uses, I would find it all the time, like by saving a picture in IE or opening an image in Photoshop. It was creepy, appalling and barf-worthy ESPECIALLY on the damn family computer. So I would delete every picture I found, how proud of felt. But then I would just discover new ones. Just a couple of minutes ago I was in there when he opened an image in Photoshop and the folder that was open was low and behold, porn. I wouldn't have noticed except for the "preview image" option was clicked. He changed folders quickly and was silent. I didn't say anything in the midst of my absolute revolt and disgust. It is just fucking sick. I don't want to think of him in that light. I am so glad I have my own computer *shudders*.

Today I found out that my beloved crush, David has a girlfriend. (insert long, heaving sigh here). ;lakjsfe9u3wafhd. Thank god she doesn't go to my school. And he looked so good today too *slumps in chair*. He had a little bit of stuble and it was so cute. I want to go on about all the things that attract David to me, but I don't want to bore you.

It's freezing in this house! Someone get me a nice warm David...erh I mean blanket, to cuddle up with.

It's at times like these I'm even MORE glad I have a mac--that email worm can't get me. *strokes her Macintosh then evilly laughs and points at all the suckers who have PCs*

In the midst of my procrastination last night, I updated the contents, make sure to check out the new sections as well: About Me, Ask me, First Celeb Crush, Life as a Dick--NEW, Oxymorons, Paris, Quotes--NEW & Your Mind. (Side note: by clicking these links directly, the layout won't work properly so I suggest clicking the little navigation images towards the top.)

[Edit//] Incubus' "A Crow Left Of The Murder" is on The Leak. Go visit and listen. :)

Everyone has been annoying me lately (Watch out people, I have PMS!), especially in my classes. People at my school are SO stupid and immature. Half of them think they are better than me. Just because your daddy has a lot of money and you think you are all that doesn't make you superior. Soon I will be out of this hell house...*sings* Hallelujah! Hallelujah!

My sweatshirt still smells like onions. God damn food bank making chop a zillion onions. Even after two washings this disgusting smell still lingers on the cuffs *grumbles*.

Only 2 and a half more days of Chemistry!! I am so fucking excited. I hate that class. I have an 83%, which I am very proud of but I can't let it fall to a C because that class isn't THAT hard...I just never pay attention for put any effort into it haha.

Ahem. I would like to explain a little something. Some/most of you know I like Hanson. And most of you still think they are little kids that sing MMMBop. That was seven years ago. What they put out in 1997 was their only "pop" album. Since then they've produced two albums (one acoustic...obviously pop isn't acoustic) that have been totally different from what "mainstream" is today. So don't categorize them if you don't even know what they sound like because they sure as HELL aren't pop. Before you them off as that pop shit I suggest you take a listen to their stuff. I'm not saying you need to like it, just respect it.

From their upcoming album:
· Dream Girl (I highly suggest this one)

A little bit of acoustic:
· Strong Enough to Break
· Underneath

I would provide you with some more clips but I don't want to take up Sez's space and bandwidth. So if you'd like, you can listen to some more enriching music here (electric) and here (acoustic).

Side note: This was not directed towards anyone in particular, because you know I love you all.

I'm have withdrawl symptoms from not being able to get on my own computer. Damn router. It went out for some odd reason so now I can't get on the net, or print or do anything that was previously hooked up to the wirless system. Apple should make routers. Humph. I miss my lappy. :(

N-f was down for a while but now it's back...yay! I'm getting all these hits now because I so generously provided HH with this scan. Zac....those...lips....kiss me. Please? They are so lucious. Or at least talk dirty to me? tehe

Hmm let see. Ramblings: I need a new bra. David is hot. I had a really bad stomach cramp this morning. It left like someone was wringing my stomach out. But luckily it went away when I ate something and when I saw David lmfao. Sooo how about some coments on the new layout? Yes, what a good idea.

New layout. Hell YES. The other one made me cringe. But there is a little problem with this one--I can't seem to match the background pattern with the image. Hmm oh well. Let me know what you think!

Borders decided to be cool and finally got the new Phantom Planet CD in. I HIGHLY suggest it, so get your ass to the record store.

Don't you hate it when you over hear people talking "bad" about you? I went driving today. *gasp* Can you believe it? I got some strange motivation that came from god knows where. After a little bit of eves dropping I hear my dad go, "She DROVE?!? And from there? WHY?" Yeah wtf. Just be happy that I drove. It doesn't happen very often. I don't like when people doubt me. But it always feels good to prove them wrong.

Some stupid warning labels that I found particually funny:

-A warning on an electric router made for carpenters cautions, "This product not intended for use as a dental drill."

-On a 12-inch-high storage rack for compact discs: "Do not use as a ladder."

-A warning label found on a baby stroller cautions the user: "Remove child before folding."

-A label on a hand-held massager advises consumers not to use "while sleeping or unconscious."

-A container of underarm deodorant says, "Caution: Do not spray in eyes."

-A cartridge for a laser printer warns, "Do not eat toner."

-A household iron warns users: "Never iron clothes while they are being worn."

-A label with a hair dryer reads, "Never use hair dryer while sleeping."

-A 13-inch wheel on a wheelbarrow warns: "Not intended for highway use."

-A cardboard car sunshield that keeps sun off the dashboard warns, "Do not drive with sunshield in place."

-"Do not allow children to play in the dishwasher."

This layout is disgustingly ugly. Hideous, infact. I found some cool Photoshop tutorials and I'm going to experiment with those. So new layout soon.

My 30 hours of community service for projects is DONE.

I love talking about boys.

New layout! I was getting tired of the old one. This one is pretty plain and simple, but that is my mood so it works for now *nods*. Let me know what you think (if the comments aren't being a beotch).

Sooo let see....we're going to...Ha...wa...ii. Hell yeeeeeeesssss. My family and I are going this Christmas. Meehehe I'm so excited I could smack my butt! *smacks it* Ah hell I'll smack Zac Hanson's while I'm at it too! It's a graduation present (no, not that ass smacking you stupid). Also my mom has been wanting to go back for a very long time. And hey, the flight is even free since we have plenty of frequent flyer miles racked up from years ago. WHEEEE! So many hot hot boys, sandy, beaches and sun (and pinapple)! OMG WHAT IF I SEE SPONGEBOB WHEN I GO SNORKLING?! bahaha I'd laugh and secretly piss myself. And it's not like anyone would know since we'd be in water. (Note to self: Stop fantasizing about meeting cartoon caracters.) It just struck me for the millionth time in my life that I am very very weird and deranged. Someone help. Now. Call Demented Hills.

Edit// BlogSpeak comments can kiss my ass! How come I always get a commenting system that craps out on me? The new ones should work.

The weather has been crazy lately. Snow, cold, ice, correction....massive ice, and rain. It was so icey yesterday that EVERYTHING outside was frozen. The lawn, plants, rocks, mailboxes, sidewalks, you name it. I went ice skating on our patio with my tennis shoes haha. Yeah, I'm cool like that. Luckily it's all melting.

I hate cramps *whacks them with a shovel just like my stupid ass neighbor was doing to his driveway at 7:30 in the freakin morning when I was trying to sleep in, enjoying the 2 hour delay*.

I added some new contents, because I was extrememly bored. So go check that out. Thank you to everyone who has commented over the past few days!

*slips on socks* A little late night rambling again. Ok, it's not so late but I got out of bed, my feet were cold, realized I didn't shut the comptuer off, and had a sudden urge to blog about nothing. Winter Break is almost over *whimpers*. I don't want it to end. I enjoy sitting on my lazy ass all day long, scrapbooking, talking on the phone and eating. Speaking of eating, I had a bowl of chocolate ice cream with cookies and marshmellow cream on top. Then the night before I spead Nutella over bread and topped it with marshmellows. I know my period is coming when I have cravings like this haha.

So I typed in "tooting" at google just because I was bored. Welcome to Tooting, Endgland. Yes, there really is such a place. And strangely enough, I want to live there.

Last night I had a dream that I was flirting with David, then I started walking away and he poked me in the boob. I just kept walking even faster and was like, "Holy shit.." Then I walk into a classroom where the girl sitting next to me is drinking Vodka out of a water bottle. lol Oh the dreams I have...

Playlist - "Dream Girl" by you know who if you know me well enough. FYI, keep this on the DL. Hnet nazis are EVERYWHERE *screams in horror*

I thought Katie had changed, with her self-centered, annoying ways...but no. She called me today "OMG Ash, I have NO idea what to do! The only time I can fit in community service is tommorrow and the place will probably be closed! Ah, I can't fit it in any other time! And no place is open ont the weekend! OMG I'm SO stressed!" I gave her some ideas. "But UGH, I don't want to do that!" So I was thinking 'screw it' and told her "I can't help you, figure it out for yourself," in a really bitchy tone. Ha I was proud of myself. And she uses me when she has nothing else to do and no one else to hang out with. I'm not going to stand this shit anymore. Maybe I'll ask her, "No one else could hang out with me...I called everyone I knew! So do you want to do something? Huh?"

My mom took me to the dermatalogist the other day for my "acne", a total of 5 pimples, two of which are under the skin. Yeah, wtf? She was all secretive and up tight-up about which annoyed the shit out of me. It's a fucking pimple. "But I'm really concered and it's important to me to get thist taken care of." Insert another WTF? here. The medicine they perscribed me was also used to treat anthrax. Haha who would of thought? I talked my mom out of making me take it, with a strong agruement of how I don't want to injust a potentially fatal medication for just a few pimples. It's also really degrading when she takes takes my 5 pimples so seriously. It's like saying "You're ugly. And I want to fix it." If she was laid-back and casual about it, I wouldn't give a crap.

I'm cranky and pissed. Happy fucking new Year.

Enough of my complaining. I'm going to go eat more brownies and get fat.

I woke up this morning and was pleasantly surprised by SNOW! Whee it was fun. That means I have to do community service tomorrow and Wednesday, instead of today and tomorrow like I planned. Thank god for snoooow *sings*.

The new year is approaching so I've decided to make a list of New Year's Resolutions:

-Spend less time on Hanson.net, and the internet in general
-Think only about making myself wonderful
-Work out for 15 min. each night, just enough to get toned
-Stop living in a shell and caring about what others think of me
-Re-unite with my Pee-towners and meet Hanson again
-Meet Hanson and go to a Maroon5 show with Becca
-Become less worrisome
-Do more social activities outside of school
-Spend more time with friends, less time at home
-Stop being lazy
-Go to more concerts and shake my ass
-Have more fun and enjoy life

My brain is tired (..must..get..food..and..lick..Zac..Hanson), and that's all I can think of at the moment. Share yours! And have a safe and happy 2004 :) And while you're at it, sign the poor, lonely guestbook.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas! :) I got a lot of great stuff--clothes, candles, ornaments, soft towels, undies, beads, chocolate, scrapbooking materials, and a little figurine of my dog with wings and a halo. It almost made my cry when I opened it lol.

My old gbook is being spammed by porno! lmao I went to check it earlier today and all these images of girls in thongs and bikini's came up advertising their porn sites. Greeeat.

I've never typed with nails this long before. I now understand why pianists always keep their nails short. I'm having a slightly challening time typing haha. I didn't think they can grow this long. I'm not going to trim them until the end of break. So in the meantime I can SCARE everyone with my dagger-like nails! *evil laugh*

Mad Cow diease has now hit the US...and it's only a state away from me. Meeps. For those of you who don't know what Mad Cow diease is, it's tranmitted to the cow by infected chemical feed, and basically what it does it eat away at your brain, then you die. Hopefully the beef that was infected was not eaten by anyone (and we had prime rib for xmas dinner, yay). So only organic beef for Ash (and you) from now on.

I added all of the Christmas graphics I got, click the "Contents" link to your right and away you go. Plugs to everyone who sent me one: Becca, Sez, Cheryl, Mez, Mattie

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! :) Thank you to everyone who sent me xmas graphics...I luff you guys! I will put them up and plug you all later. :) And a plug to the cool commenters, Will, Cheryl and Whitney. You guys gave me a lot of ineresting things to think about. I always try to see it from all sides but there are some other sides I haven't explored yet. And I'm sorry if I offened anyone last entry. I think what I was trying to say came out wrong--I don't hate religious people, I just don't respect the ones who hate others because of who they are.

I saw Pirates of the Carribean for the first time tonight. Orlando Bloom is offically the sexiest man alive. As my Christmas gift to all of you, here is a little eye candy (beware, the following contents may cause wetness of the panties): BAM! That man is sex on wheels. hehe Every time I say that it reminds me of a wobbly cart being pushed down a hall going "squeak, squeak, squeak".

It is getting to the wee hours of the morning....and I have a lot to do tomorrow. Like taking a shower, eating, opening gifts, more eating, stalking Orlando Bloom, eating, and last but not least, getting in bed with Orlando. Merry christmas to all, and to all a good night.

What is this? Ash blogging THREE days in a row, you say?!? It's a conspiracy! But today is very significant so I must. A year ago today, my dog died. He was my best friend. He didn't care who I was, what I looked like or anything at all. He just loved me for me. When I was having a horrible day he was always there to cheer me up with his soft nudges and wet kisses. I miss him so much. I want him to be here right now, curled him laying beside my chair. Shit now I'm crying. I love you Ripley.

I gave into trend and temptation today. I was at the Banana Republic and saw this scarf and decided to put it on for fun. But when I found that it looked good on me, I had to get it.

You would be proud of me. I actually made an attempt to talk to Seth today *gasp*. I decided to stay for 3rd since he had a free 3rd and a lot of other people did too. He is the sweetest, funniest guy ever but one of the most homophobic, close-minded people I've ever met. He was saying how "gay people aren't the creation of God and they are sinners" then later on he said something along the lines of "I hate Abercrombie because they have porn and they support gay people and gay organizations". WTF? I was about to smack that stupid bastard. I wanted to so very badly but it would've created bad problems lol. Overly religious people like him annoying the shit out of me, especially if they are so discriminatory. It's not like gay people wake up one day and decide "Hmm I feel like being gay from now on!!" Just like you can't choose what color your eyes are, you can't choose what sex you like. It pissed me off so much. I mean he truly is an awesome guy, if you exclude the fact that he is a close-minded biggot. If it weren't for that I'd like him. Oh well, his loss.

Thank you to the two lovely commenters Becca and Will. I'm tired, hungry and my throat hurts like a bitch. And in yesterday's post I was very screwed up. I was having an ugly day haha.

Have you ever wished you were different or could change the way you are? I'm sure you have. It's crossed all of our minds at least once. I wish I had a better personality. My shyness and fear of what people think of me keeps me from being who I want to be, and what I know I can be. I think this is due to the way I was raised. Sheltered from all things bad and left alone with no siblings. My reserved and inverted personality gets in the way. For once I wish I could break through my shell and be audacioous. But I don't know how.

I wish I could be more beautiful. It sounds superficial, and maybe it is, but what's wrong with wanting to be attractive? I'm fine with my body...its just my face. I want to peel the fucking thing off and start new again. I've noticed the world favors the more beatiful people, and always has. I want the world to be a Walt Whitman. He thought everything beautiful. I love his poetry.

If I could just start over and change a few things about myself I would be happy. I don't think I'll ever be happy with the way I am. I want to be something else.

On another note, I wrote a poem last night and am going to submit it for a scholarship. Wish me luck.

*smacks self* I HATE BOYS. David is so fucking sexy. He just HAAD to look so incredibly fine today with his adorable puppy dog eyes and the whole "rubbing the chest and streching thing". Holy shiz. I was looking at him when he was doing that and oh my...I just have to say that if I didn't have a considerably reasonable amount of restraint, than that poor boy would have been tackled to the ground smothered in my kisses haha. So you thought I liked Seth, right? Well stupid ass David and his sexiness is making me question my liking of Seth. David needs to do something stupid so I will stop liking him...like..pee his pants. Yes, that is what he needs to do. And I am sure that all of you reading this right now REALLY care about who I like because it is such an integral part of your life. Don't mind me about my boy ramblings, I am just trying to avoid a shit load of homework.

So they captured Saddam. His captivity photos are almost as scary as Michael Jackson's mug shot *chuckles*. And Keiko died :(. I was lucky I got to see him when he was at the Oregon Coast Aquarium.

Thank you commenters: Julia and Becca. I'm off to my dailies!

Mehehe I like another boy :) David's friend. Yes, David has moved to 2nd place on my list. His friend, Seth (I think?), seems more my type. He's not immature AND he plays the guitar, which is 50 million bonus point in itself hehe. I always find him looking at me, and I look at him and *sigh* I can't get him out of my head. I can picture myself being with him--Me dragging him to Hanson concerts (buwhaha), cuddling on the couch, keeping me warm when I'm cold, etc. *cries* He seems like such a great guy.

ANYWAY enough of this stupid boy talk. I don't really have much else to say other than I'm starving, I have a lot of homework this weekend and no time to do it aaaand I like Seth. I want a bagel with Seth on top hahaha.

I looked around at school today and noticed that everyone looked the same clothing wise (people watching is so fascinating, I always discover something. People are every interesting subjects). It suddenly hit me how much it bothered me. I'm not going to be like that and I don't want to be like that. The lack of good stores is also the account for such uniformity, but come on. *bangs head on desk* I've never seen so many walking Abercrombie ads in my life. Mommy HLEP! It scares me!

I found the perfect college, The Fashion Institute of Technology in NYC. It made me get all giddy and clap lmao. They have SO many major to choose from, not just fashion. The possibilites going through my head are endless. Ain't nobody gonna keep me from my dreams lol. So when the day comes that I have my own (successful) botique and you can come in and get a discount...thank me later. ;)

I got my flu shot today. I read in the newspaper the other day that the world is due for another world-wide flu empidemic, like the one that killed 20 million people over a century ago. Oh YAY.

So I have started my Christmas list (not that I am going to get any of these...buuut I can try):
-Sony CD Mavica 5MP Digital Camera, one of the nicest out there
-SpongeBob Squarepants Season 1 DVD
-Urban Decay eyeshadow
-iTunes Gift Card
-Money for my college education because with my plans it's gonna cost a hella lot hahaha

Thank you to all the lovely, wonderful people who commented: Becca, Julia, Laurie, April and Mez

My comments are so effed up. Its saying I have none when there is actually 5. STUPID THING! *shakes fist at enetation* I'm going to find a different comment service after I blog.

This flu empidemic is REALLY scaring me. I'm so paranoid. I wash my hands before I eat and after I get home from school. Plus I don't want to go places unless I have to. Shut up and stop laughing at my scareness lol. Plus my friend works at a doctor's office and they diagnosed a person with a strain of the flu that is not covered by the shot. Meeps! I really should get my flu shot.

I went to the dentist yesterday and I have a cavity :(. OOoh and the ABC Family show "Switched" is going to be at my school soon! I want to watch it and be like "AH! That's my school and my town!!" lmao.

Thank you everyone whose commented on the last few entires! :D

Edit: I got a new comment system, yay! Hopefully this one won't screw up.

Ok, it's official....I want to rape David. He is just so damn fine. As I was walking down the hall today he was looking at me again, his head moving along with me as I walked past him until I sat down and people blocked his view lol. Hell yeah I AM ONE SEXY BEYOTCH, YO! I couldn't help but look at him a little, his puppy dog eyes are too adorable. But I am stupid yet again, he was sitting alone and I didn't talk to him. Someone smack me.

I love boys. Especially David. And Zac Hanson.

Jamie Oliver is a sexy British chef. And he has the best recipies, mmm, mmm good.

I have a lot of homework soooo I must leave you for the moment.

Yay I went shopping today. I luff shopping. I didn't find much though. There were so many things that were waaay out of my budget and just a plain rip off lol. I'll go to Portland soon and find some good deals at Forever 21...awesome store. I don't have much to say so this is going to be a usless post. I'm just trying to avoid doing my homework during this nice Thanksgiving break. Damnit! I want t left over turkey sandwhich! But do we have any turkey? Nooo.

This Garfield comic makes me laugh. :)

I've been looking at colleges lately. I know I want to go to a fashion design and merchandising school. The only problem is they are 1/2 year colleges. I want to back myself up with a 4 year university, and also live the college life. I'm thinking maybe going to a 4 year uni., then go to fashion school. I wouldn't know what to major in at the university though. I don't want to become a usless ninie hehe.

I changed the layout around a little bit. The other one was just making me cringe. Let me know how the iFrames work out for you (my first time doing them, woot woot).

David is so fucking hot. Each time I see him I just want to rape that boy! RAWR! Omg and he has the nicest butt ever *wishful sigh*. He was lifting up his pant leg comaparing his leg to some other guys (and of COURSE David's was way better hehe), and wow...he us just lickable. So tan and muscular and damn fine. Ok a little hairy but it works for him. That boy could be wearing a speedo and it could work! Ha ok no. No one and I repeat NO ONE looks good in speedos.

I almost forgot to put deoderant on today. I rushed up stairs before we left to put it on quickly. I managed to get it on my shirt AND in my hair. Don't ask. I washed it off thinking it would go away but nooo I come home from school to find that it was still there. I was walking around all day with deoderant showing visibly on my shirt. haha My coolness amazes me.

New DAMN sexy layout! Heh I dunno about that but I was ready for a change. Tell me what you think. :)

I was scared out of my boots the other morning, here's the story: Innocently eating breakfast and reading the paper, I was stopped in the midst of a chocolatey bite of muffin when I saw the most hideous thing in my whole entire life--Michael Jackson's mug shot. Dear god, they should've warned us! Think of the poor kids! Sometime like "Warning, proceed with caution. The following may cause blindness." hehe

I need to talk to my David lol. Yes, he's mine...GET OFF BITCH! haha Oh lordy. Anyway! As I was walking towards where I usally sit for lunch and he was blatanly staring at me *spanks ass*. It couldn't be more obvious. AND he was sitting by himself. Did I do anything about it? No of course not. Sarah was like "Ashley! He was sitting RIGHT there looking at you and you didn't do anyting!!" *smacks self* I'm stupid.

I got a haircut yesterday. It's a little shorter than I wanted it but that's just as well, the ends were getting dry.

*sings*
Yes I'm grounded
I got my wings clipped
I'm surrounded by all this pavement
Guess I'll circle
While I'm waiting for my fuse to dry

Someday I'll fly
Someday I'll soar
Someday I'll be so damn much more
'Cause I'm bigger than my body
Bigger than my body now
Bigger than my body now

A little late night bloggin for Ash *evil laughter* I'm supposed to be sleeping so SHHH. I can hardly see the keyboard...too dark, man tehe. I'm feeling better today. I just have horrible mood swings. Damn period. Or maybe I'm manic depressive? Ahh CALL THE PHYSCO WARD! Demented Hills! Demented Hills! (Didn't you guys ever see "Good Burger" with Keenan and Kell? *giggle*)

Yesterday morning a guy at my school hung himself. I guess he wasn't fully successful at first before his parents found him and he died two hours later. What a sad loss, he was only 15 years old. That poor boy. If only he knew there was another way out than ending his life. The freaky thing was I heard tons of sirens yesterday morning. :(

I have a new daily, meet Mattie! :) Oh and I forgot to plug Cheryl last time, luff ya!

Ok it's way too dark to type so I'm off! VROOOOOOM

I just got off the phone with Katie. I told her about my "friend delima" and she didn't even care. She was just like "Well...go um..I dunno, do something." She was so insensitive towards my feelings. I have definitely come to the conclusion that everybody think they are better than me and that I am not good enough for anyone anymore. I always felt sorry for loners but I never thought I would become one. What's happening to me? I used to have friends and an unfucked mind.

I have so much lonliness in my life. There's no one offline, out of my friends that I can turn to. I don't feel like anyone truly cares about me. I know people care about me, but no so much in a way that is "Where's Ashley? I want to go to lunch with her." No one ever calls me anymore except for Katie, and that is about homework and boy shit. I call other people but we've lost so much in common that its hard to figure out what to talk about. Then we end up never calling eachother back. I stopped trying because it wasn't getting anywhere.

I used to feel like I fit in. Now I'm just a lonely little shadow that gets unoticed and doesn't know where it belongs. People have shifted their priorties and their friends with out me. It hurts. Its like no one wants to be my friend anymore. It wouldn't be such a be deal if I had a lot of good people who I could talk to, but I don't. I've tried and tried without any results. I'm lost and I don't know how to find myself. If only there was someone to help me.

New layout soon. This one fucking sucks.

Yes I am alive! I've been erhh...busy. Yeah, thats it *looks around*. I've been neglecting this poor little site. I FINALLY got a desk, YAY! No more make-shift box desk hehe. And it's very nice too *pets desk* Although it does make my room even smaller. We had art club yearbook pictures on Friday and our teacher made all of us wear berets hahaha Yeeeaah, we're gonna be the sexiest club there, true DAT. ha I've gone insane. I've been accidently hurting myself lately. I burnt my finger on the god freakin toaster the other day and I did something weird to my hip last night. Humph. I need a cookie hehe :)

My mom and I went to a college fair this weekend and I got an ass load of brochures. There are some AWESOME looking ones from art schools that I grabbed just because I was so interested in the design aspect of them lol. But I did find a few colleges that I want to look into. One in particular, The Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising. They have graphic design, product and store managments, costume design, etc. It was amazing and I'd love to go there...but the only thing is there are so many majors there that I would want to do. I have so many ideas wizzing through my head. Its hard to settle on one.

And thank you to all my commenters. You guys really mean a lot to me :) Thank you. Becca, Cheryl, Mez and Lillian rock.

I cried myself to sleep last night. My dad was yelling yet again and I just couldn't keep my composure and this fucking happy face I put on all the time. I do that just to please others so they won't think anything is wrong with me. And sometimes I DON'T want them to know anything is going on. I'm a very private person and don't like people seeing my weak side.

Things that are evil:
-early morning class
-cold weather
-chemistry (the most usless class I've ever taken)
-being lonely

Things that are good:
-sleep
-chocolate
-cute boys (ie: david)
-hanson (Carnegie Hall this Wednesday--that's right, my boys are legends)

I need to make a new layout. Blah.

SIGN THE GUESTBOOK GOD DAMNIT!! The thing is lonely....go give it a good spankin ;)

Hair-smeller-freaky-boy (haha oh yeah, rockin name) insists on talking to me everytime he sees me. It's umm interesting. While I was talking to him before school today Dale comes up and gives me this huge hug which he rarely does....compeititiiooon oh la la hahaha. Big football game tomorrow and I'm gonna freeze my ass OFF! Seriously I think I will.

I need to stop slacking. My grades aren't as good as I know they can be in a few classes. But when I think about the classes I'm not doing well in are the ones with bad teachers. Go figure. Oooh I'm applying for a scholarship. I have to write a small peom. Wish me luck!

I don't understand this, why am I attracted to so many guys right now? I can name 5 off the top of my head. Stupid thoughts of boys are going to corrode my mind, ack. Maybe its my mating season? rofl

*falls over from reading so much* I just read over a 100 pages of "Black Elk Speaks" in a matter of hours. It was actually a really good book. I suggest it for a different type of reading, if you're in a dream-y sort of mode. The ending is very powerful and I discovered a weird sort of feeling of completeness after reading it. I found a quote out if it that I'm going to share because I "spoke" to me if you will: "It is hard to follow one great vision in this world of darkness and of many great changing shadows. Among these shadows men get lost."

I saw David (aka Mr.EE in some of my previous posts) at the game on friday...my cute little JV football player who is a sophomore! haha Damn he is so cute I just want to smoother him with kisses everytime I see him lmao. Homecoming was last night and it turned out to be fun. Not the greatest dance ever, but I had a good time. I was dancing like a crazy-foo! hahaha David wasn't there though :( Although his friend was...and he is cute in a weird sort of way. He seems really nice too. As Sarah and I were walking out I had my arms crossed and pulled close to me to keep me warm, which in turn made my boobs kinda fall out of my dress haha. And there was this guy sitting in a car, we made eye contact and he smiled and said "Hi," as we were walking past him, so in this sexy voice I'm like "Hiiiiiii." rofl Sarah and I started cracking up! I should've gone back there to talk to him lol.

So I was in the library at school today looking information up about Italy and this dude next to me starts talking to me. He was really nice, trying to make conversationg and stuff. Although it did get annoying when he kept mentioning how many places he'd been and how much money his family has. Uh yeah like I care? Then he was all leaning into me while typing random countries on my computer and smelling my hair. Eww *pushes dude away* I don't think I would've cared WASN'T the guy who kept staring at my friends ass last year. haha

Homecoming this Saturday. Blah, I don't want to go but I got a dress so now I feel obligated. Plus I have so much work to do this weekend and not enough time! Ahh the stress! It's taking over! lol *runs around in circles screaming and pull hair out* Ahhhhhh!


YOU LIVE IN A WALMART BAG!!!

what's YOUR deepest secret?

HAHAHA That's SO me! And thanks to all the commenters on the past few entries, much love for ya! :)

I accidenly O.D. on cold medicine. I took 5 doses instead of 4 in a 24 hour period. I read the directions wrong lol. Well it won't kill me, or at least I hope not! So if you don't hear from me in a long while... (ha ok thats not funny).

I felt so bad when my friend Sara called earlier today. She started to cry because our school won't let her back in since they aren't accepting any transfers right now. She's being homeschooled at the moment, but her guardian isn't teaching her anything. She was like, "I want to learn! I want to have a future!!" It really sucks. I wish I could do something to get her back to school. But I am virtually powerless in this issue (I almost typed tissue hahaha).

God I was so pissed on Saturday during the PSAT. When I registered for it a couple of weeks ago the lady didn't take my name, so I found out that morning they weren't going to count my score. I was like WTF? Isn't that YOUR guys' fault, not mine? So after I bitched about it the guy got it straightened out and my score is gonna count after all. Thank god *grumbles*

I so want to sell this stuff! I could have my friends buy it and I could make some extra cash by doing practically nothing. OMG IDEA....the money that I could get from this could go towards my "Follow Hanson on their next tour with Pee-towners in our Love Mobile with Mr.Jiggles the cat" fund. I should give myself a nice pat on the back for that idea.

PSAT tomorrow. I'm a little nervous....eerrh ok, I'm scared out of my boots! ahaha And its at 8 am in the freaking morning. *grumbles* I want to sleep in god damnit! I'll just have to eat some chocolate before I leave because they is supossed to increase the altertiveness of your brain or something like that.

The street cleaner just went by. The sound turned me on hahaha No not really I just felt like saying that because I'm in a weird mood. Must be the Sudafed Sinus! I think I have a cold. It's like a nasal plug or something....stupid, weird arse cold. Oooh I found out Mr.EE's name today, David. I heard someone calling his name. I haven't "officialy" talked to him yet. My friend Elizabeth's moving away party is tomorrow. I'm sad, I don't want her to move away :(

This entry has been random and pointless. But then again, when are my entries every meaningful? lol

I found out one of my friends is bi the other day. I guess he told some girl who he's friends with and after he left she ended up telling half the people who were at her house. I kinda saw it coming though. There were some clues a long the way...but I just thought he was a little flamboyant. The sad part is everyone thinks he's weird now and he said he'll probably just end up marrying a girl because he doesn't want his family to be ashamed. I feel sorry for the poor guy.

Last night my mom was talking about Pilates and she goes, "Have you ever hear of 'paul-ettes'?" HAHAHA I just started laughing. And I go, "You mean 'pull-aut-ese'?" She was really surprised that you pronounced it that way, so then I convinced her it was "pual-ettes"...she believed me of course then I told her again that it was "pull-aut-ese". hehe I love doing that to people.

Sara said she would do yoga with me, yay! Now I just have to find some cheap place thats close. I have so much homework *groan* Oh and I just want to say that I loath Hanson.net at the moment.

Only things like this happen to me--I volunteered at a refreshment table for a Walk-A-Thon and one of the lady's helping was a man haha. "She" was wearing Jinco jeans, purple nail polish and some really nasty musk perfume. hehe But she was really nice. Then I saw this guy who looked like Josh Hartnett, I was thinking "Rawr *POUNCE*!"...as the refreshment table come crashing down and cheese sticks fly everywhere lol. I can totally see that happening.

I FINALLY heard from my friend Sara who's been "missing in action" for a couple of months. And of course she calls when I'm gone. Tiff talked to her earlier and was telling me a little bit of what happened. Sounded like some serious sheeeot. She didn't tell me everything because Sara wanted to tell me what happened. I hope she's okay. Tiff said she sounded sad :(

I really want to go see "Scary Movie 3" Omfg it looks hilarous....and the Michael Jackson part HAHAHA. Yeah I gotta see this movie. And thank you to everyone who's been commenting the last few entires. :0)

I had the most disgusting burrito for lunch. It was like...bean paste with some sort of cheese substitute. haha What in the world has school a la carte come to? *shakes head* And they except me to pay a while 50 cents more compared to lasat year for an even shitier piece of crap! Humph.

So Tiff and I were supposed to talk to my Ethan Embery look-a-like crush today. Heh thats much harder done than said. She went over and talked to his friend that she knows that was standing with Mr.EE (lol thats what I'm going to call him until I find out his real name) and she motioned for me to come over. Both MR.EE and his friend were looking at me when I was coming over and Mr.EE was following me with his eyes as I was walking towards them. It was so not obvious...But OH YEAH BABY! He's kinda quite though. Maybe my sexiness intimated him. rofl Yeah I bet that was it. So I didn't really talk to him...just his friend. DOH that wasn't the plan! But aw he is so adorable and has a very nice butt. *smacks it and runs away* hehe

On another note, my smurf name is Critically Ill Smurf. LMAO!

SOMEONE MAKE ME STOP PROCRASTINATING GOD DAMNIT! I have an essay to write and I have like 100 words out of 1,000 *smacks head on table*. Tiff and I are going to talk to out Ethan Embry look-a-like tomorrow :D *licks him* haha

Art club is fun. We're painting bowls lol. Mine's seeexy. I love iTunes. I'm really into this Radio thing they have on there. "Beethoven Radio" is amongst my favorites haha. Its relaxing and it helps me study when I'm not putting shit off.

Short entry, nothing to say except I am going to change that the Random Picture right now. Must...refrain..from..putting...up...Zac..Hanson..again.

Today was really good. Nothing special happened though..it was just good. Ok so maybe I talked to the guy I saw yesterday and thought was cute and now I sort of like him hehe :) He reminds me of this actor, Ethan Embry click and click, except with darker hair and eyes and side burn (ooooooOOH MAN!!!). He is such a cutie! Not hot but there is something incredibly adorable about him that makes me want to smile when I look at him (awww). His friend was talking about how he was such a ladies man and how he went through girlfriends a lot and he was like, "Well I got bored." haha Not cool! But he is really religious and I swear I heard him say he hasn't kissed anyone yet and doesn't plan to until he gets engaged (?!?!). Woah..definitely interesting. And I saw him checking me out...OOOlala SCORE! *shakes ass*

There is so much work that our Lit teacher is making us do. We're reading two books, one "The Tempest" which we're reading it in class, plus a zillion other things that go along with reading these two books, then an essay and a whole bunch of other crap. Blah. Oh then I found out I'm playing Miranda and have to wear a "long, flowing dress and flowers in her hair" lmao. That is gonna be a sight.

Thank you commenters :D -- Sez, Becca, Mez, Reed and Kena.

Incredibly bitchin new layout lol. I dunno if you could really call it that...but let me know what you guys think :) Today was really good. I think my period and those durn hormones were screwing with my brain and making me sad. Did I mentioned I'm in Art Club? Ha yeah GO ART CLUB! We're painting these bowls and I'm planning to do some kind of Indian/Arabic theme. I was looking for inspiration online and Indian jewlery and body art is just amazing. I love their abstract designs, bold colors and use of jewels. There is such a beauty to it. I feel like an art critic lol. Anyway we are selling these bowls and if someone actually buys mine I'm going to feel so special! hehe

I'm also thinking of doing yoga. I was interested in doing it this summer but never got around to it. When someone mentioned in my comments that I should try yoga it re-inspired me. It'll be a good relaxation tool *sits cross-legged and Ummmms* haha Now that I'll be joining a yoga class I'll have to get some REALLY tight spandex ROFL. That'll be DEAD SEXY. You know it!

Thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone who commented last entry...you guys give good advice and make me feel better *big hug* :) I promised myself that next week WILL be better and I'll get my self out of this rut. Nothing much going on, just sitting here drinking water in my FREAKING HOT room. Its so warm in here I'm sweating buckets. I'm bored. *searches for blow up Zac doll*

I decided to customize my larger than life Hanson Street Team shirt to make the fit a little better. I'm going to find some cool way to "do it myself" hehe. I'm a DIY-er *snort*

New layout soon (be EXCITED).

I have no real friends. I have friends but none of them are true and they don't give a shit about me. Can't they see that I am hurting so badly inside? No my hard shell won't let them see it. I want so much to confide in someone at my school. But no one would understand. The only person who understands me is Jess (one of my pee-towners, can I hear a whoop whoop?). She knows what I'm going through and I know what she's going through. Our minds are so much a like, we are practically the same. She's the only person I've ever been able to open up to and relate to. The only problem is, is that she lives in Alaska. (Why Jess why? But it will be alright, we are going to Tulsa in just a couple of years! lol ;D)

I've never felt so alone. I feel like a zombie walking down the halls. This year is getting worse day by day. I can never find anyone for lunch and when I do they are off doing better things that I don't want to intervene with. Like today I asked what Christina was doing and she was like "Ooh going with Katie for a litte talk." Ok alright so I didn't bother asking anymore and just went on my lonely way to find someone. Later on I saw them and some other girl just giggling and walking around. Uh thanks guys. Real friends that I have. Katie just calls me for homework that I never give her and then wants to talk about guy problems. I don't give a shit bitch. I'm not going to let anyone use me. So I ended up going to the art room again today to work on the school webpage. It is so sad and I've never felt like such a loner before. It's like no one cares about me and I'm beginning not to care for myself. Why do I have to do this to myself? I keep walking into a darker and darker cave, withdrawing myself whenever possible. I put on a fake smile for everyone to show that everythings all right. But its not. The hurt is so bad. God damnit I just want to fit in and for someday this little mind of mine to make sense.

I'm on the verge of tears.

Anyway this is my first entry here at never-forget.org. I luff ya Sez and thank you so much for hosting me. And thanks to Tara, my previous host. I'm sad to see the domain go.

I was so bored last night I did my make up all funky. I lined my eyes in a black pencil, put a turquise/gold hue on my eyes up to my brows, glupped on the mascara and lined (again) in a purple sparkley shadow haha. I felt so 80's. I was doing all these modeling poses in the mirror lol. I should've taken pictures! I went to get a necklace cleaned and the chain is STILL dingy. The silver chain was already a little diry before the Portland and Seattle Hanson shows but afterwards it was almost black! haha I was sweating so bad! They reccomened that I use silver polish and a toothbrush to clean it. Ha yeah right, too much work for me. Paperflower.net is closing in a month :( I'll miss it here *sniff* I have so much homework this weekend. WHY do they do this to us? Why?!?

Speaking of Hanson, if you want to see my pictures of when I met them just email me or leave and comment and I'll send you the link :).

God my dad is such a fucking dick. The yelling never ends. I was sitting here doing my homework just a few minutes ago and couldn't even read because he was yelling and complaining so loud. He wants my mom's helps but yells at her for doing it wrong. Why doesn't he go do it himself then? Urgh. Then when my mom is helping him he goes "BABbaba, DONT' TALK!" or "STOP TALKING!" Wtf? You don't treat people like that. I can't stand all this shit anymore. He freaking controls her like a robot. Two more years and I'll be out of here...living my life how I want it and away from the yelling. I need to get away. It's not good for my emotional state, seriously. It's been this way ever since I can remember. I should look into how growing up in an environment like this affects the brain.

Thank you Mez and Amy for commenting :). Off to visit blogs..

This school year already fucking sucks. Two days into it and I already want out. My friends are nowhere to be found during lunch. Some of them have gone to different schools, found friends they're closer with, drive in their cars to lunch, go to work or whatever. I find myself looking for someone I know and just inviting myself to lunch with them. I don't like doing that because I don't "fit in" with their group and I always end up feeling like an outsider..a third wheel. If things wouldn't have changed from last year it would all be good. But now people are finding better things to do and forgetting me :(. I'm so lonely and all I want to do is have a group of friends that I actually fit in with. I mean I have friends, but not a lot of good ones that truly care about me. Will I never fit in?

My song of the day:

Isn't it weird. Isn't it strange
Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train
We're both trying to find a place in the sun
We've lived in the shadows, but doesn't everyone
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes
Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain
You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear though you're screaming so loud
You feel all alone in a faceless crowd
Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes

Sitting on the side. Waiting for a sign. Hoping that my luck will change
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same
When you live in a cookie cutter world being different is a sin
So you don't stand out. And you don't fit in. Weird
Sitting on the side. Waiting for a sign. Hoping that my luck will change
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same
When you live in a cookie cutter world if you're different you can't win

So you don't stand out and you don't fit in. Weird
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird
Strange, how we all get a little bit
Strange, 'cause we're all just a little bit weird sometimes
Just a little bit weird sometimes
"Weird" by Hanson

Anyway the Hanson concerts and the Meet and Greet were more than I could ask for. Hanson is such an amazing and talented band...no one will ever top them in my book. The Portland show was simply magical. A review later.

Hanson = TOMORROW! Oh-my-god...must...remember...to...breathe.

Thank you to everyone who's commented in the past couple of days, I luff you all! I'm off to pack..

I AM FUCKING MEETING HANSON! Yes you read that correctly! I got a Meet and Greet for P-town baby! I had a really good feeling all this week about. My concious was telling me something good was going to happen. And god damnit it was right on the spot. Also today in class we wrote down who we wanted to meet and I wrote Hanson and by golly my wish came true. The coincidence is weird I wrote that down and then got the email for the M&G in the same day. WHEEEEEE!! 4 (closer to 3) more days! I'M SO EXCITED!

So my first day of school. Yup, I was almost late. Having class at 7:30 is just WRONG. Not many people are in my first two classes but that's ok. I know some in the later ones. Then I get to leave after lunch...the only perk to have class that early in the morning. We went to lunch at Taco Time and they ran out of table numbers so I was left with just walking up there and getting my food. It was taking forever then they finally came out so I grabed it...it ended up it was someone else's food. I just thought they screwed up or something so I was like whatever, I'm eating this! Oooopsies hehe. Then I went to our football game tonight (right after I found out about the M&G :D) and we won! Whoop whooop! Made my day even better. I'm trying to get Christina to stop liking Anthony. She almost started crying when we were talking about it. I felt so bad. I can see what she sees in him but then again I don't. He is so nice and funny and such a gentleman but at the same time he is really immature and just a forking guy. He tries too hard for everyone to like him all the time. I think the more people he knows, the bigger his ego gets and the more special he feels. After we left he was like "Awww you guys are going?" And gave as all hugs. Ha it seemed like it was all show but then again I dunno. Because I am pretty good friends with him and it's not like I haven't done that before. Although he was trying to impress some senior girls and probably wanted to show that he had other girls friends and was all pimp like. hehe He cracks me up...men *shakes head*.

God damnit. I just took my school picture and got back in the car to find that my hair was fizzy and wind blown. And of course I didn't bother/take the time to fix it before the lady took my picture...noo..I wouldn't do a thing like that to make my picture look good. LKSAI8ELFPE;DJHA Grrr. I know it is going to be bad. Then I walked all around for the rest of registration like that. Ughhhhrrrrr. Wait you know what? I don't care. I don't give a fuck if people saw me and thought "Erh, nice hair." I don't care what you think. Yeah I like Hanson. SHOVE IT BITCH. I'm not going to care what people think of me anymore. And if they want to judge me, screw them. I'm so sick of sterotypes, judgemental bastards and people who won't give you the time of day just because you are the hottest or prettiest thing around. Just fuck all of you. Humph.

Hopefully I will be getting a desk soon. There are 40 thousand possibilites but nothing seems to work because there are so many scenarios surrounding it *sigh*. I just want a cheapo desk that will fit. My 3 Doors Down review is done...I should've taken a camera. New layout soon. This one is bugging the hell out of me for some reason. It's not the best work I've done, in my opinion. I have a little trick up my sleeve but probably won't beable to post it for a while because I have no real graphics program! The one that come with the computer doesn't have an option to add text. Pfft, what kind of graphics program is that? *grumbles* I'm feeling sorry for myself because summer is almost over and I don't want it to end. Maybe I should go outside and lay in the sun while reading up on the PSAT's and watch the physco neighborhood squirrel eat leaves.

I went and saw 3 Doors Down the other night in concert (8/26 at the OR State Fair)! It was so awesome! They are a great live band. I'll have the review soon, I need to find the set list somewhere. And it just so happened that I went to to TJ Maxx and saw that they were hiring. Finally some place to work! So I picked up an application and am returning it tomorrow. Wish me luck. But my hopes aren't high cause I'm not expecting anything. I have zero retail experience...well zero work experience for that matter lol. Hmm yeah I don't have much else to say. School is coming soon, pictures even sooner and I have a big zit. It's one of those under the skin pimples *shudders* WHY do I always get them before pictures, why?!? It's happened every year for the past 3 years or something haha. Hopefully the size will go down soon. I can't believe summer is basically over. It's gone by waaaay too fast for my liking. The most exciting thing I did was see John Mayer and 3 Doors Down in concert lol. Ha yeah, the exciting life of Ashley.

God I swear blogger is retarded. I want to get rid of this thing but I don't know what else to use....I liked greymatter but I never understood how install it myself haha. ARG and so is hotmail. It keeps saying "Server too busy." BUSY MY ASS. Alkjashf. Hey guess what? I'm a part of the Offcial Hanosn Street Team for Oregon haha. I posted flyers around town today, hopefully that will sell at least one ticket. And if you want, you can by a ticket here cause I know you want to see Hanson in Portland *wink*.

Nothing too exciting happening here. Ooh wait, what am I saying? Katie and I almost got into some crapola the other day. We went shopping downtown and her mom just happened to be in the area when Katie needed directions to a dance shop. I wasn't supposed to be with her since her 6 months isn't up. And when she was on the phone with her mom she reailzed that she was almost out of gas. Then her mom insisted in coming down to see her. I ran into a nearby shop and stayed there for about 10 minutes before Katie was able to come pcik me up. The lady in the store thought I was going to steal something haha. She was so suspicious of me. Yeah, like I am going to steal a swatch of frabric you idiot! Anyway I had to stay ducked in the backseat until we got out of downtown. I was in the worst position lol. It was greaaat. But if Katie's mom would've found out she was driving with me they would've taken her license away until her 6 months were up. Hotmail is still being a bitch. Ahh I need a real computer desk, my back is killing me. I'm sitting ont he floor with my laptop proped on the box in came in haha. It just screams COMFROT! Ha nooo.

I'm on my new laptop and DSL right :). It is so awesome! You guys should see it..lalalala. I got my schedule the other day and they gave me NO electives. Wtf? My school is retarded! And I don't think I have a lot of clases with my friends either. Eh oh well. I am getting my hair cut today. I'm thinking of shaving it all off, GI Jane style haha. Just kidding. I'll probably do the same thing I always do, cut a couple inches off the bottom and taper it in the front. I would do something more wild but I have a new problems, 1. I don't know WHAT I would do and 2. I got a horrible hair cut in 6th grade (think Brady Bunches' mom *shudders*) and ever since I am scared to do anything drastic. I don't have a desk for my laptop yet and the bottom on it gets really warm so my legs are buring lol. I don't have much to say so I will stop writing and boring youto death.

I really want to see "Le Divorce" only because I like the song at the end of the preview haha. Shut up, it's cool. I got my Portland ticket for Hanson today :). I accidently chose to print them out on my computer instead of having them shipped. So I had to call and get that all straightened out. The first lady I talked to was such a beeotch. But then the second guy was very nice and curteous. My laptop should be getting here anyday now! I can't wait to get on it and put all my crap on there. I can do anything I want with it cause it's miiiiine. It's gonna be a bitchin' laptop, yo LOL. I'm going to call it "Lil' 15-incher". ha Don't ask...I just had a smoothie earlier and all the natural sugar is going to my head heeehe.

And I hate this new blogger design/system. Everytime I go to publish it keeps refreshing forever *hits blogger*. Thank you Becca and Mez for commenting.

I think my friend Tiffany has been brainwashed by a religious cult...seriously. The past 5 months or so she has been really into going to chruch and being religious. Up until a few days ago I thought it was all fine and dandy and I could care less...now she has totally changed her belief system in an instant. It's like she is going along with the other people at school because they believe it too and also because she has been brainwashed (I'm convinced). Tiffany is never going to date until she marries. She believes that when she finds the right guy, God will tell her because this guy will have everything she wants in a man. She won't even HANG OUT with a guy on a one and one basis. She was obligated to hang out with Anthony and was trying to drag me along because she can't/does't want to hang out with just a guy and her. I just told her I didn't want to because I don't want to be USED. I reeeaaally don't want to be her "fair weather friend" for this stupid religious belief. I'm not going to be and if she begs me to go next time I am going to tell her how I feel. I mean, I don't really care if she is very Christian but when it comes to this...I mean COME ON! I can understand the dating part but not the hanging out part, especially if it envolves using me. And it is just a freaking guy! He is not going to kill you. We used to be good friends but now I can see that going down the drain because frankly I don't want to hang out with a person who is crazy like that. It's just no fun. That's why I've never really been interested in being regligious. I don't agree with a lot of their beliefs, how they treat situations, what they do, etc. It's actually kind of scary how much Tiffany has changed and become a brainwashed follower.

OOooh guess what? I got a Seattle ticket for Hanson! The next thing coming up is the pre-sale on the 13th for Portland. I have to get a tickt to that. We also ordered my new laptop yesterday! My own computer..yay :). Thank you to all who've commented on the past couple of entires and have signed the guestbook.

Oh crap, I deleted my whole entry I just wrote. Grrr. I haven't blogged in a while for some reason...sorry! Anyway, since Katie got her license we have been driving around a little. We went to pick up a movie the other night and cruise around to other places. At 10:30 we stopped by Christina's just to say hi. We stood at her driveway flailing our arms trying to get her attention without making any noise. It onviously wasn't working so we looked for a rock to throw at the window haha. All of the sudden her Dad walks into the room and we were like "Oh crap!" and took a run for it. We were craking up so hard by the time we stopped. Then after two or so more times of driving by her house, she still didn't see us lol. Jason left Phantom Planet. That sucks because they were a great band. I wonder what they are going to do now?

Look what Cheryl gave me! Isn't she the best? :)

HANSON:
Portland - Sept.9th
Seattle - Sept. 10th
OOOHH YEAH BABY! You know were I'll be then! *dances*

I got my "bed in a bag" set up the other day and it looks so awesome, my room feels complete and comfy now. With school approaching, I've been thinking about the next couple of years a lot. They are going to be so stressful--national exams, senior project, college plans, etc. The PSAT'S are in October and do I have a clue what they are about? No. I should start studying soon. With all this going on it is making me feel like I have to grow up to fast, and I really don't want to. But I do at the same time. Maybe I am just sad that my childhood is leaving and I'm moving into a new stage in life. *waves goodbye to carefree life*

After I got my top wisdom teeth out a couple of months ago, I wanted to let them heal properly so I didn't wear my retainer. Oooh that was a bad idea. My teeth started moving and my retainer doesn't fit properly. I've been wearing it nonstop lately so get them back into place but it's not working very well. There are a little spaces between the two teeth right next to my front ones and other places. And erh, I don't know what to do because I can't tell my parents would flip since they spent so much money on my braces. I didn't think that they would move like this because I've had my braces off for a couple of years. Hopefully they'll get back into place soon! lol I finally got the Maroon 5 CD (yay for gift certificates). Ah it rocks! I suggest that you buy it. Thank you to everyone who has commented the past couple entires: Anna, Sez (go visit her new domain!), Lillian and Mez. Much love! And I can't forget Cheryl for signing the gbook :).

New layout! If things don't seem to look right, try refreshing to view the "new" stuff. I also updated to contents. My family birthday party was yesterday and I got a whole load of stuff! Tons of clothes, bath stuff, candles, shoes, a new bedspread, etc. Then my Grandma gave me $1000 towards a computer! I had no idea this was going to happen. So I am getting a NEW laptop. Eeeee I am so excited! We went down to the Mac store to look at it today. Oh my god, it is just so freakin cool. I am going to have my very own computer *back flips*. We are going to order it pretty soon. I was looking through all of my entries ealier....time flies. My life is going by so fast. It's kind of scary. And I have to remind everyone again, my birthday is now tomorrow! I can't believe I am going to be 16. Oh and the 80's move "16 Candles" was on today. What a weird coincidence.

My birthday in 3 days, everyone! What are you planning to get me? :D I'd really like to see a Hanson show but noooo they aren't coming here. Hopefully they will soon or else I am going to kick some Hanson arse! I don't have much to talk about. New layout and updates soon. I am going to the beach for my birthday--a day of sun duning, eating seafood (fish and chips...yum) and walking along the beach. Hopefully Tiff can come along and maybe we'll get into the water again so it looks like we peed our pants haha. While I was driving back home today there were no other sunglasses in my aunt's car so I had to wear these "emergency" pairs she had. They were so huge! It was like clown glasses meet bug eyes hahaha. I was feeling pretty cool 'n hip ;) lol.

I found the coolest shoe botique today. They actually have cute flats and "almost flats", unlike the department stores. And not all of their schoes have 4" heels like the ones I find at the mall. Finally a place that has good shoes! *dances* But they are a little expensive. One day, one day, I will have enough money to buy a nice pair of shoes. Ooh or maybe I could work there and get a discount. Like they'd hire some crazed 15 year old haha *runs around in circles with shoes packed tightly under the arms*. No wait! Almost 16 year old. My birthday is in 8 days! What are you planning to get me? *grin* I am feeling a little weird today. It probably is the sun and all that sugar in the Slurpee I had earlier. *does back flips* WEEEEEEEE!

Thank you Mez for commenting! She has a wonderful new layout so go check that out. Now I am off to visit other blogoramas! Heh new word, meaning a blog with pazazz. I'm not sure if that is how you spell pazazz...it reminds me of jazz which also reminds me of jazzerscise. Which is a very funny concept haha and the name always makes me laugh. (Note to self: I need help! "Help is on the way dear, help is on the way!" -Mrs.Doubtfire)

I bought a very cute khaki skirt from Old Navy today that actually fits me really good. It's not to often that I find a skirt like that...so I'm happy! I got my John Mayer pics yesterday. I am a little disappointed because they look further away then we really were. But the one of Christina, Scotty and I turned out great (although my hair looks a little funny lol). I'll scan some of the good ones and post them when I'm not lazy :).

Only one more time volunteering and I'm done for the summer! *dances* I'm glad because it is sooo boring. I just sit there, read, draw and play legoes. It is fun for about ummm..a minute. Wildfires are burning near us. It is really freaky because I can see the huge plumes of smoke in the air. And this time all the fires in our state have been man made! Stupid people! *shakes fist at dumb campers*

My John Mayer review can be found here, then follow the links. The concert friggin ROCKED! He totally blew my socks off. He is just amazing and so talented. He played some of my faves; Neon, Something's Missing and 3x5. If you ever have a chance to John in concert....go!! His new CD is coming out Sept. 9th, btw. :D And I found that they didn't care about the cameras until after I snuck them in by putting them in my pants and cover it with a sweatshirt haha. So I got some good pics! Those will be up soon, I need to get the rest of the second roll taken and then delvelop it. I also meet John's tour manager, "Scotty the hottie" hehe. He is so nice (and good lookin').

My mom is in this crazy frenzy because we are throwing a wedding shower for my cousin tomorrow. The past few weeks EVERYTHING has been about this stupid shower and I am sick of hearing about it. She even asked me what clipboad she should bring! Umm hello, figure that out for yourself. It is like she is trying to live up to someone's expectations and prove that she has no flaws. I don't understand her sometimes.

Thank you Cheryl, Lillian and Mez for commenting, and Julie and Aaron for signing the lonely gbook! :) No time to visit blogs today...next entry maybe. And hopefully a new layout featuring John with some of the pics I took.

John Mayer tomorrow! *dances* I'm going to have to find a way to sneak a camera in. My Dad suggested I should stick it under my arm pit haha. I'd be like, "Here is my ticket sir," while holing one arm securily to one side! lol Holy moly I'm so tired. I didn't get much sleep last night and then I had to work up early this morning for some volunteer work I'm required to do for school. There is this one guy who works there and he is so cute. He reminds me of Nick Lachey from 98°, except half punk and not as ripped. But damn he is fiiine....and in college *sigh*. And his earings make him look so much hotter. Ok I must stop now. I'm off to comment on other people's blogs! I'm hoping to get a new layout up soon.

I was watching a show on the Egyptian pyramids earlier and it is so interesting. That part of history really intrigues me for some reason. And I do believe in the curses that were put on the tombs. I don't think any of the deaths at illnesses at the excavation sites were just coincidences, they were really the ancient Egyptian curses put on those who ever disturbed the tombs. And plus and I don't think it's right that they are taking these famous rulers and exploiting them all around the world in big cities (just one more reason why there have been so many deaths involving these pyramids). How would you like it if someone disturbed your grave after millions of years of peace and being wrapped in cloth (hehe..)? I would be a little pissed. *nods* So don't be disturbin' my grave, yo! hahaha

I fixed my CD player that was broken. *grin* The second deck was refusing to come out and it screwed everything else up. Pushing random buttons really does work! Thank you to everyone who commented last entry. You guys rock!

I'm so wrapped up in Hanson right now. All this excitement for the tour, new pictures and songs is making me go crazy. I NEED TOUR DATES NOW. And they must come to Oregon! But then when the tour dates are announced I'm so going to crap my pants haha. I hanven't been this ungulfed in Hanson since three years ago when their last album came out. I'm seriously going crazy waiting for these stupid tour dates to be posted. Enough about Hanson because I know you don't want me to babble on about them.

If you live in the Oregon/Washington area and want to see John Mayer on July 10th at the Clark County Ampitheatre, purchase tickets here. It's going to be an awesome show..so go! I also updated the contents so you are just going to have to click that little contents link to your top right to see what I did. There is going to be a new layout soon too. I am tired of looking at this one. I've yet to design one though...


Thank you Amiee! Have a Happy 4th too. :) That reminds me...I need to get some fireworks.

Woah, this is freaking me out man...Blogger redesigned everything. I hope none of my crap got messed or up. Anyway! Go get Michelle Branch's "Hotel Paper"! It rocks and I've been listening to it non-stop. This CD is a little more mellow than the last and I love everything about it. The lyrics are "sentimental" and I can relate to so many of her songs. I luff it and you will too. So go buy it....or else you will have to mess with the concequences *slips on boxing gloves*. I also created a small little skirmish at the Michelle Branch Message Board hehe. Go check it out (note: I'm brachingout). Yes I'm proud of myself for speaking my mind and letting my PMS get to me haha. I also get Rooney's new CD, titled "Rooney". And that one also knocked my pants off. So there is my second recomendation for today. :)

There are some weird garage sale junkies running lose in this crazy world. I never knew they could be so umm...mentally unstable until the other day when I helped my parents with one we had. This lady came speeding up into our drive way and parked about two inches away from our garage. I thought she was going to drive into our garage at full speed! haha The first hour was full of people buying our junk but the rest of the enredibly long 6 hours was a bore. I went to pick strawberries today. I love real strawberries! The ones from grocery stores are usually not that good.

I don't see why so many people are criticizing VH1's Top 100 Songs of the Past 25 Years. Yeah some of them suck but the majority are really good pieces of work that've changed music. I love the comment Zac Hanson made on Lenny Kravitz's "Are you gonna go my way?", "It just makes you wanna....be black with dreads." Ok well I thought it was funny becuase Zac is just funny and plain hot. And god damnit I love Hanson! Yes laugh all you want. But I just heard some of their new music and holy crap, I love them even more. They are so talented and don't get the credit they deserve because people think they are still all 12 with long hair and look like girls. Um yeah, that is not the case now and I'm typing really fast right now, just to let you know.

And thank you to the three awesome chicas who commented: Kathy, Amiee and Mez.

I reccomend that you not see "Hollywood Homicide". The only good part of it was Josh Hartnett and the last 20 mimutes of the movie. The rest was so boring and I was sitting there thinking, "When is this moving going to end?" So afterwards Tiff, Sara, Anthony and I went back to his house and just hung out and talked. It was mostly just me and him talking and occasionaly Sara. I felt bad for Tiffany, it looked like she was pissed off and not having a good time. I've been trying to call her to see what was wrong but she's not been home. You know what cracks me up? The "Mrazda" in Jason Mraz's "The Remedy" video. Everytime I see it I laugh so hard. I dunno why, it's just really funny. Mrazda...hahaha.

I almost choked to death the other night. Usually when I choke I can still breathe but this time I was coughing and gasping for air but nothing was moving through my lungs. My mom had to do the Heimlich maneuver on me. It is the scariest feeling not being able to breathe. *shudders* I never want to have to experience that again.

::sings:: I am sick, sick. So very sick, sick. ::ends singing:: Ha yeeeah, why is it that I have to be sick? My nose is beyond stuffy and I have to blow it every 5 seconds. And it hurts because it's rubbed raw. I don't want to stay up all night blowing my nose like I did last night. I actually want to SLEEP. Who ever gave me this crap should be hit.....many times. Oo, I just sneezed and it cleared my nasal passages. I CAN BREATHE! Scratch that, it was on a temporary relief.

Now that schools out I don't have much to talk/complain about. There has to be something because I don't want to bore you guys even more that I already do! haha Well I checked and there's nothing. Yes I know I'm fast. Speed racer! Thanks Sez for leaving a comment and to everyone who has signed my guestbook lately. Much appreciated. :)

So my summer vacation has started and I'm already bored. I also managed to catch a cold--sore throat and cough. Yay, perfect timing...not. I think the girl I sat next to in math give it to me. Grrr. I haven't really done anything so far. Just sat around, watched TV, talked on the phone and went on the computer. I need to do stuff with friends! I wanted to the night we got out of school but everyone was already busy.

I wonder when the sunny weather will return? I miss it already. Thanks Wingyee and Amiee for commenting.

One more day left of school....then I'm free for 3 months! "I'm so excited, and I just can't hide it. I know, I know, I know that I want you." I think that's how the song goes haha. I bought this really crappy 89 cent eye liner and BI-Mart today. I don't really know why lol. It was just kind of funny and cheap so I got it. The people at BI-Mart probably think we're weird (and theives--they follow us around and give us weird looks....yeah, like we're gonna steal something from BI-Mart of all places) because we go in there like 3 times a week at the same time. But hey, there's nothing else to do during our free period. I saw the hottest guy today and I thought be had to at least be a sophmore but nooo, he is a freshman haha. But I don't care, he is still good lookin'! I bit the side of my cheek 3 times when I was eating lunch...I amaze myself sometimes.

I updated the contents so you're just going to have to take a peak at it. AND thank you Mez for this awesome fan sign (I haven't gotten one in forever, so if you'd like to give me one that would be very nice):

You're welcome for everything...I <3 you Mezzie!

It is so hot in here. Give me a mini fridge so I can stick my head in it! lol My parents don't want to put the air conditioning on because we are going to be gone this weekend. We have gradution parties and relatives birthday's to go to. Fun, fun, fun. And last night there was absolutely no breeze so my room was frickin hot. I got the cutest swim suit yesterday. And hey, what'd ya know....it's purple (I love purple). I also got my hair cut. It's basically a trim, but it's a little something different and plus I needed all the split ends chopped off. They styled it with a flat iron and it looked really good. I tryed to mimic it this morning with a curling iron but yeah....that didn't work out too well.

I feel horrible. Tiff wanted me to ask Anthony if he liked her and he said "No, I've never thought of her that way. That's weird. Why'd you ask?" And ever since then he has been acting weird and not flitry with Tiff. I hope that things go back to normal because I feel so bad since I made this happen. He was flirting with me today at lunch and I was thinking "No, no! Flirt with Tiffany! She is sitting right next to you." But obviously he didn't get my telapathic wavs lol. And thanks to the two lovely ladies, Mez and Amiee for commenting.

Only 7 more days of school left. Wooohoo! I can't wait. I cannot believe this year is almost over, it's gone by so fast. But during the summer I get to sleep in, relax and not worry about homework at all. And later on this week it is going to be high 80's and low 90's. Yeeeaah. We usually don't get that kind of weather around here. Warm weather is fun and it makes me feel happy. I'm so loving in a warm climate when I'm older. Today I came home and realized there was something on my butt and at first I thought it was a period stain and I was like, "Great! That's just what I needed." But then I looked closer and it was green....some kind of grass stain. The weird thing is, I wasn't sitting in grass at all today. ha I wonder how long I walked around with that crap on my butt?

Unpdates in the contents later on in the week--I'm too lazy to do them now lol. I didn't realize the text was going crazy for so many people. Sorry guys! Thanks Lillian, Sez, Amiee and Mandy for commenting. :)