I woke up this morning and was pleasantly surprised by SNOW! Whee it was fun. That means I have to do community service tomorrow and Wednesday, instead of today and tomorrow like I planned. Thank god for snoooow *sings*.

The new year is approaching so I've decided to make a list of New Year's Resolutions:

-Spend less time on Hanson.net, and the internet in general
-Think only about making myself wonderful
-Work out for 15 min. each night, just enough to get toned
-Stop living in a shell and caring about what others think of me
-Re-unite with my Pee-towners and meet Hanson again
-Meet Hanson and go to a Maroon5 show with Becca
-Become less worrisome
-Do more social activities outside of school
-Spend more time with friends, less time at home
-Stop being lazy
-Go to more concerts and shake my ass
-Have more fun and enjoy life

My brain is tired (..must..get..food..and..lick..Zac..Hanson), and that's all I can think of at the moment. Share yours! And have a safe and happy 2004 :) And while you're at it, sign the poor, lonely guestbook.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas! :) I got a lot of great stuff--clothes, candles, ornaments, soft towels, undies, beads, chocolate, scrapbooking materials, and a little figurine of my dog with wings and a halo. It almost made my cry when I opened it lol.

My old gbook is being spammed by porno! lmao I went to check it earlier today and all these images of girls in thongs and bikini's came up advertising their porn sites. Greeeat.

I've never typed with nails this long before. I now understand why pianists always keep their nails short. I'm having a slightly challening time typing haha. I didn't think they can grow this long. I'm not going to trim them until the end of break. So in the meantime I can SCARE everyone with my dagger-like nails! *evil laugh*

Mad Cow diease has now hit the US...and it's only a state away from me. Meeps. For those of you who don't know what Mad Cow diease is, it's tranmitted to the cow by infected chemical feed, and basically what it does it eat away at your brain, then you die. Hopefully the beef that was infected was not eaten by anyone (and we had prime rib for xmas dinner, yay). So only organic beef for Ash (and you) from now on.

I added all of the Christmas graphics I got, click the "Contents" link to your right and away you go. Plugs to everyone who sent me one: Becca, Sez, Cheryl, Mez, Mattie

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! :) Thank you to everyone who sent me xmas graphics...I luff you guys! I will put them up and plug you all later. :) And a plug to the cool commenters, Will, Cheryl and Whitney. You guys gave me a lot of ineresting things to think about. I always try to see it from all sides but there are some other sides I haven't explored yet. And I'm sorry if I offened anyone last entry. I think what I was trying to say came out wrong--I don't hate religious people, I just don't respect the ones who hate others because of who they are.

I saw Pirates of the Carribean for the first time tonight. Orlando Bloom is offically the sexiest man alive. As my Christmas gift to all of you, here is a little eye candy (beware, the following contents may cause wetness of the panties): BAM! That man is sex on wheels. hehe Every time I say that it reminds me of a wobbly cart being pushed down a hall going "squeak, squeak, squeak".

It is getting to the wee hours of the morning....and I have a lot to do tomorrow. Like taking a shower, eating, opening gifts, more eating, stalking Orlando Bloom, eating, and last but not least, getting in bed with Orlando. Merry christmas to all, and to all a good night.

What is this? Ash blogging THREE days in a row, you say?!? It's a conspiracy! But today is very significant so I must. A year ago today, my dog died. He was my best friend. He didn't care who I was, what I looked like or anything at all. He just loved me for me. When I was having a horrible day he was always there to cheer me up with his soft nudges and wet kisses. I miss him so much. I want him to be here right now, curled him laying beside my chair. Shit now I'm crying. I love you Ripley.

I gave into trend and temptation today. I was at the Banana Republic and saw this scarf and decided to put it on for fun. But when I found that it looked good on me, I had to get it.

You would be proud of me. I actually made an attempt to talk to Seth today *gasp*. I decided to stay for 3rd since he had a free 3rd and a lot of other people did too. He is the sweetest, funniest guy ever but one of the most homophobic, close-minded people I've ever met. He was saying how "gay people aren't the creation of God and they are sinners" then later on he said something along the lines of "I hate Abercrombie because they have porn and they support gay people and gay organizations". WTF? I was about to smack that stupid bastard. I wanted to so very badly but it would've created bad problems lol. Overly religious people like him annoying the shit out of me, especially if they are so discriminatory. It's not like gay people wake up one day and decide "Hmm I feel like being gay from now on!!" Just like you can't choose what color your eyes are, you can't choose what sex you like. It pissed me off so much. I mean he truly is an awesome guy, if you exclude the fact that he is a close-minded biggot. If it weren't for that I'd like him. Oh well, his loss.

Thank you to the two lovely commenters Becca and Will. I'm tired, hungry and my throat hurts like a bitch. And in yesterday's post I was very screwed up. I was having an ugly day haha.

Have you ever wished you were different or could change the way you are? I'm sure you have. It's crossed all of our minds at least once. I wish I had a better personality. My shyness and fear of what people think of me keeps me from being who I want to be, and what I know I can be. I think this is due to the way I was raised. Sheltered from all things bad and left alone with no siblings. My reserved and inverted personality gets in the way. For once I wish I could break through my shell and be audacioous. But I don't know how.

I wish I could be more beautiful. It sounds superficial, and maybe it is, but what's wrong with wanting to be attractive? I'm fine with my body...its just my face. I want to peel the fucking thing off and start new again. I've noticed the world favors the more beatiful people, and always has. I want the world to be a Walt Whitman. He thought everything beautiful. I love his poetry.

If I could just start over and change a few things about myself I would be happy. I don't think I'll ever be happy with the way I am. I want to be something else.

On another note, I wrote a poem last night and am going to submit it for a scholarship. Wish me luck.

*smacks self* I HATE BOYS. David is so fucking sexy. He just HAAD to look so incredibly fine today with his adorable puppy dog eyes and the whole "rubbing the chest and streching thing". Holy shiz. I was looking at him when he was doing that and oh my...I just have to say that if I didn't have a considerably reasonable amount of restraint, than that poor boy would have been tackled to the ground smothered in my kisses haha. So you thought I liked Seth, right? Well stupid ass David and his sexiness is making me question my liking of Seth. David needs to do something stupid so I will stop liking him...like..pee his pants. Yes, that is what he needs to do. And I am sure that all of you reading this right now REALLY care about who I like because it is such an integral part of your life. Don't mind me about my boy ramblings, I am just trying to avoid a shit load of homework.

So they captured Saddam. His captivity photos are almost as scary as Michael Jackson's mug shot *chuckles*. And Keiko died :(. I was lucky I got to see him when he was at the Oregon Coast Aquarium.

Thank you commenters: Julia and Becca. I'm off to my dailies!

Mehehe I like another boy :) David's friend. Yes, David has moved to 2nd place on my list. His friend, Seth (I think?), seems more my type. He's not immature AND he plays the guitar, which is 50 million bonus point in itself hehe. I always find him looking at me, and I look at him and *sigh* I can't get him out of my head. I can picture myself being with him--Me dragging him to Hanson concerts (buwhaha), cuddling on the couch, keeping me warm when I'm cold, etc. *cries* He seems like such a great guy.

ANYWAY enough of this stupid boy talk. I don't really have much else to say other than I'm starving, I have a lot of homework this weekend and no time to do it aaaand I like Seth. I want a bagel with Seth on top hahaha.

I looked around at school today and noticed that everyone looked the same clothing wise (people watching is so fascinating, I always discover something. People are every interesting subjects). It suddenly hit me how much it bothered me. I'm not going to be like that and I don't want to be like that. The lack of good stores is also the account for such uniformity, but come on. *bangs head on desk* I've never seen so many walking Abercrombie ads in my life. Mommy HLEP! It scares me!

I found the perfect college, The Fashion Institute of Technology in NYC. It made me get all giddy and clap lmao. They have SO many major to choose from, not just fashion. The possibilites going through my head are endless. Ain't nobody gonna keep me from my dreams lol. So when the day comes that I have my own (successful) botique and you can come in and get a discount...thank me later. ;)

I got my flu shot today. I read in the newspaper the other day that the world is due for another world-wide flu empidemic, like the one that killed 20 million people over a century ago. Oh YAY.

So I have started my Christmas list (not that I am going to get any of these...buuut I can try):
-Sony CD Mavica 5MP Digital Camera, one of the nicest out there
-SpongeBob Squarepants Season 1 DVD
-Urban Decay eyeshadow
-iTunes Gift Card
-Money for my college education because with my plans it's gonna cost a hella lot hahaha

Thank you to all the lovely, wonderful people who commented: Becca, Julia, Laurie, April and Mez

My comments are so effed up. Its saying I have none when there is actually 5. STUPID THING! *shakes fist at enetation* I'm going to find a different comment service after I blog.

This flu empidemic is REALLY scaring me. I'm so paranoid. I wash my hands before I eat and after I get home from school. Plus I don't want to go places unless I have to. Shut up and stop laughing at my scareness lol. Plus my friend works at a doctor's office and they diagnosed a person with a strain of the flu that is not covered by the shot. Meeps! I really should get my flu shot.

I went to the dentist yesterday and I have a cavity :(. OOoh and the ABC Family show "Switched" is going to be at my school soon! I want to watch it and be like "AH! That's my school and my town!!" lmao.

Thank you everyone whose commented on the last few entires! :D

Edit: I got a new comment system, yay! Hopefully this one won't screw up.

Ok, it's official....I want to rape David. He is just so damn fine. As I was walking down the hall today he was looking at me again, his head moving along with me as I walked past him until I sat down and people blocked his view lol. Hell yeah I AM ONE SEXY BEYOTCH, YO! I couldn't help but look at him a little, his puppy dog eyes are too adorable. But I am stupid yet again, he was sitting alone and I didn't talk to him. Someone smack me.

I love boys. Especially David. And Zac Hanson.

Jamie Oliver is a sexy British chef. And he has the best recipies, mmm, mmm good.

I have a lot of homework soooo I must leave you for the moment.